ProPoints CarlyLanky140's Weight Loss Journey (28/155lbs)

[hannata]

Hope you are doing well Carly? just popped in to have a read and see how you are going =P xx

 

[CarlyLanky140]

Awww that sounds brill then Jo defo be nice to have a friend u can do it! And u could still manage a maxi in heels

Hey Han... Doing well... Hoping for a good loss this week. U doing pp or sf at mo? X

 

[Jo43]

Thanks Carly xxxx

 

[CarlyLanky140]

I lost 4lb this week another 5lb to be back at my lowest. Will update stats/ challenges later x

 

[Auburn]

4lbs.... superstar, well done you xx

 

[CarlyLanky140]

[h=6]Thanks Jen

Tried a new army boot camp thing today... Trainer tried his best to discourage me but I did my best and pretty much kept up! At just under 18 stone I was pleased with myself it's outside 3 times a week... So gonna do that when I can and gym too one lass (who I looked at and instantly thought look how fit and slim she is should I go home) came straight over welcomed me and told me she was a 16 when she started x[/h]

 

[Auburn]

I admire anyone doing a bootcamp, really I do! Well done Carly, keep it up and you'll be doing fab! It's good that girl shared her story too, nice for people to open up about these things.

Have a wonderful day x

 

[*Sparkles*]

Wow fabby!! I wouldn't have the guts to do that! Well done

 

[CarlyLanky140]

Thanks girls I was really proud of myself. I'm going again on Monday x

 

[hannata]

Good woman! Keeping good with the diet too? x

 

[CarlyLanky140]

Yup can't get motivated to exercise today lol x

 

[CarlyLanky140]

Thanks Jo xx

 

[Auburn]

Happy happy Sunday Carly x

 

[CarlyLanky140]

Thanks Jen z

 

[CarlyLanky140]

Hello All!

I am here to waffle... I have felt quite emotional today... I read through the new WW mag that was delivered yesterday and all I did was cry.... I have felt like this all day

1. I hate my stupid job
2. I hate my stupid life
3. I hate being alone - I want a boyfriend/ a husband/ a house/ some kids... but firstly I want the dates and the fun times
4. I hate being fat

And most ridiculously - I feel like the only good thing is FOOD!!

I am sick of getting up every day to walk to work... then work for 8 - 12 hours ... then home/ eat/ gym in any order.. then sleep and do it all over again...

Then the weekend is spent either on call or just dreading being back at work....

I want to teach... I really do... I am just afraid... afraid it wont be what I expect.... afraid I wont be able to do it... afraid I will spend that money and wont ever get a job.....

I need to at least try!! I am scared too of handing in my notice.. of working two months somewhere I am hated (I have done that once already this year!).... I am scared of how my parents and more importantly my sister will respond as they are all against it...

But really today... I just feel alone... I feel sick of the monotony of my life... I genuinely felt like food was the only good thing.. that is ridiculous!!! I want life to be more than this...

Then just this evening I have been thinking about where I could have been by now if I was as committed to this as others... I have been on a diet since I was 11!! I once got to goal and since then have never stopped putting weight on... I really want this time to be it... I started a year ago and lost about 2 stone 7 by July and then since then I have been losing and gaining the same stone.... I want to break back into the 16s .... I want to keep going.... I want to get there.... what is stopping me?? Only me! That is the scariest thing... only me!

Anyways... back to the same old thing tomorrow... I am going to walk to work... and then do the military boot camp.. then maybe do a class at the gym... then eat and bed... I will do this.... I have until September... I want to start my course slimmer... and maybe there I will meet a nice fella?!

So back to it in the morning another good week and another good loss and less feeling sorry for myself.. xxxx

 

[Auburn]

I think there's something in the air this weekend, I could have written a lot of that myself....

100% on track to happiness tomorrow, for both of us, YES! We can do this, I knows it and ... we're fab. Don't argue with me, I'm always right

This will be a good week, I promise xx

 

[CarlyLanky140]

Thanks Jen I'm tired and hungry today but I will plod on x

 

[Auburn]

Sprint, plod, doesn't matter as long as we get there x

 

[hannata]

Keep going carly we have faith in you x

 

[*Sparkles*]

Carly Hun I'm feeling your pain honestly especially with the work situation. Do you have any holidays that you could take to give you some time to destress?