Caress
Silver Member
It's been a while since I was last here, because with what's been going on, I'd have felt like a total hypocrite giving advice and encouragement when I've been stuffing up so badly.
The truth is, the past couple of months and particularly this month I've not been doing well. Actually to say that is a bit of an understatement, I've been completely off track, I've been comfort eating, totally off diet and I'm ashamed and embarassed about what I've been doing. However I think the only way I can truly get past it and get myself back on track, is to be honest, upfront and admit to what I've done.
Been a rough time lately all in all, my relationship broke up on my birthday, he forgot about it, I didn't even get a card, which caused a huge argument, I dumped him, but always with the hope that we could work things out, after all we've been together on and off for 5 years, always managing to sort things out, splitting up again, round and round in circles. Well without going into huge detail, it is over for good, circumstances dictate it, there's no way back, it couldn't work anymore. I only found that out on Monday, it's a bit of a kick in the teeth, hurts very much, but I have to come to terms with it.
I started going off track a couple of months ago, having a bit of extra chicken on my salad, a little bit more fish, some more salad, extra milk in my drinks, so much so that my losses slowed to a crawl,I started avoiding weigh ins, having excuses not to go, (sorry Nicky) On my birthday it got worse, I went off diet, been eating bread, bread and more bread. Which started the whole cycle, eat, feel lousy about it, so eat more.
It's gotten to the point, that I've pretty much thrown £500 away, 2 months of the diet, no losses, I may as well have burned the money. So as of now, I'm 3 days in to 100% SS. I'm back in ketosis, I'm finding it difficult, but I have a new mantra..
I think about the food I have in the house (sausage rolls last night) and I repeat to myself, £500, £500, £500
So this is my restart, I've had 2 months of peeing about with it, I HAVE to get on it, lose this weight, after all I'm almost half way there and this is it.. As Nicky said, it's time to poo or get off the pot (she didn't say poo though).
The good news is, I lost 5lb this week, after just 3 days.. 5lb to go and then it's 7st lost, I plan on hitting that target next week.
The truth is, the past couple of months and particularly this month I've not been doing well. Actually to say that is a bit of an understatement, I've been completely off track, I've been comfort eating, totally off diet and I'm ashamed and embarassed about what I've been doing. However I think the only way I can truly get past it and get myself back on track, is to be honest, upfront and admit to what I've done.
Been a rough time lately all in all, my relationship broke up on my birthday, he forgot about it, I didn't even get a card, which caused a huge argument, I dumped him, but always with the hope that we could work things out, after all we've been together on and off for 5 years, always managing to sort things out, splitting up again, round and round in circles. Well without going into huge detail, it is over for good, circumstances dictate it, there's no way back, it couldn't work anymore. I only found that out on Monday, it's a bit of a kick in the teeth, hurts very much, but I have to come to terms with it.
I started going off track a couple of months ago, having a bit of extra chicken on my salad, a little bit more fish, some more salad, extra milk in my drinks, so much so that my losses slowed to a crawl,I started avoiding weigh ins, having excuses not to go, (sorry Nicky) On my birthday it got worse, I went off diet, been eating bread, bread and more bread. Which started the whole cycle, eat, feel lousy about it, so eat more.
It's gotten to the point, that I've pretty much thrown £500 away, 2 months of the diet, no losses, I may as well have burned the money. So as of now, I'm 3 days in to 100% SS. I'm back in ketosis, I'm finding it difficult, but I have a new mantra..
I think about the food I have in the house (sausage rolls last night) and I repeat to myself, £500, £500, £500
So this is my restart, I've had 2 months of peeing about with it, I HAVE to get on it, lose this weight, after all I'm almost half way there and this is it.. As Nicky said, it's time to poo or get off the pot (she didn't say poo though).
The good news is, I lost 5lb this week, after just 3 days.. 5lb to go and then it's 7st lost, I plan on hitting that target next week.
Sorry to hear you've been having such a dreadful time lately and struggling with your eating 
