Scots mist,I can totally relate to your feelings... I am currently size 18/20 and have just totally gone 'into myself'. I'm normally a fun loving happy go lucky person, but lately feel as if i have to conquer my weight before really enjoying anything again. Got married recently, and anyone would think that i should have done lipotrim before wedding, but with hen nights, weekends away and meals out... it just didn't happen. But now still in honeymoon stage i don;t want to be held back by my weight. Fair play to you for doing course, i'm sure it'll help by talking to others with similar stories. It will be a step towards feeling in control again. I did lipotrim 3 years ago and like you, found it grand. Now this time round, with new husband in toe... cooking his dinners, i'm not so sure how i'll find it having food around all the time. The last time i was so focused and there wasn;t a morsel of food in house... hopefully i'll stay motivated with help of this site this time. How's it going for you so far?
Firstly, congratulations on your marriage.....this is the time when you should be enjoying your new life - eh!..so, do this 100% sweetie...if not, it wont get any better, as you will just draw into yourself even more..and feel people are judging, etc.
Now, regarding having to cook, etc...this is another learning curve. I find it easier cooking when I am on LT. I am actually wanting to go into the kitchen now and cook!!! But, I just find it liberating that I know I can cook with oil/butter, etc for my hubby but I wont eat it. You see, when I start eating, I just eat what I cook and then the weight piles on...but now, I know I cant touch it, so I just relish cooking all these lovely dishes for my hubby. Strange I know and I cant really explain it very well.
Dont look negative about it,,,you are talking yourself down and out of LT and you probably dont even realise it. Why should it be any different?? At the end of the day you want to be free of the feelings you have and that feeling of drawing into yourself and if it means 100% LT, then just accept it. Dont fret about it..no point, because you will fall off the wagon (so to speak) so quickly and at any excuse.
Just keep jumping on here......if you are struggling, there will always be someone here to just help you and give you a lift along the way!
But, keep looking forward....what keeps me going is getting into all those clothes that I didnt get much wear out of before I started to put the weight back on again!!!
Set yourself mini goals as well; this helps....then maybe treat yourself (non food) every time you get to that goal...
We will get there,,,,,but dont let anything get in the way!! and that means anything and anybody!!
Take care sweetie.