Hi,
I came across this site by accident and decided to embark upon the Cambridge Diet after reading some of the amazing diaries.
I'm fed up of the poorly concealed looks of disgust from strangers, the concern from my family and the disappointment in my own eyes when I look in the mirror (which isn't very often, to be fair) and wonder how on earth I let myself get this big. More than anything I want to have a family. It's not happening naturally and I've got no hope of getting any medical intervention at my current BMI. I've been on a diet pretty much constantly since I was 16 (weighing 14.5st). It's gone off and on again many times, but I need something more permanent.
My aim is to get to 12.5 stone to start with. I'm 5'6", so this is still a BMI of 28ish, but that's the lightest I've been as an adult (when I was 18!) and I liked being a 12/14. My friend is getting married in August and I'd love to be able to buy a pretty outfit, so that's my target date. That give me just over 4 months to lose 4.5 stone, which, judging by some of the amazing results, should be doable if I stick to it. I may decide to edit this lower when I get there, but I've got plenty to get started with.
I like the idea of having a diary, even if noone wants to read it, because I'll be able to go back and see where I had good days and bad and hopefully learn from myself - I think this will really help me get to grips with my binge eating. I can eat a lot in one sitting, and I mean a lot, and I don't think I'm alone in sitting and eating until I feel sick and thinking, 'Oh I've opened this now, might as well finish it' and ending up feeling even worse. I think the thing that makes me feel even worse is that I got my DH in on the action too. When we got together 9 years ago he was about 12 stone. Before he started on his own weight loss journey (through healthy eating and exercise - this is going well for him) he had ballooned to 18 stone too. I feel awful that I inflicted this upon him, which makes me want to eat. I need to break the cycle, for both of our sakes.
I went to see my CDC on Friday morning to stock up on my goodies for the week. I took 4 a day, so that I'd have extras if I was struggling and needed any extra over the first few days. I was very excited (I still am) and I rushed in to work with my porridge for breakfast and soup for lunch. Within an hour I was on my way home again, having been struck by the dreaded tummy bug that's been going round work (just in time for Annual Accounts as well!) and have spent the weekend holed up at home and suffering. However, I have been 100% for (nearly) three days and I am so pleased with myself.
I haven't had any headaches and because I've been poorly, I haven't missed eating at all!
I've spoken to my CDC this afternoon and she's suggested that I come off SS until I'm better. However, she understood that I probably wouldn't agree with her and we have compromised that I will go up to SS+ for a couple of days, just to get some solids in me, and I'm to stick to the lactose free shakes I have left (5, so hopefully I'll be feeling better pretty quickly). I'm not sure how I feel about this. I understand that I need to get better, that's why I got in touch with her, but I'm slightly disappointed and not at all sure I can eat anything - I still have a soup to go today!
I feel pretty lucky as well. I've liked nearly everything I've tried so far except the forest fruits, but I don't like forest fruits, so I'm not even really sure why I got it! I even like the porridge, which is great, because I usually have porridge for breakfast anyway.
Right, I'm off to see if we have anything SS+ friendly in the fridge.
x
I came across this site by accident and decided to embark upon the Cambridge Diet after reading some of the amazing diaries.
I'm fed up of the poorly concealed looks of disgust from strangers, the concern from my family and the disappointment in my own eyes when I look in the mirror (which isn't very often, to be fair) and wonder how on earth I let myself get this big. More than anything I want to have a family. It's not happening naturally and I've got no hope of getting any medical intervention at my current BMI. I've been on a diet pretty much constantly since I was 16 (weighing 14.5st). It's gone off and on again many times, but I need something more permanent.
My aim is to get to 12.5 stone to start with. I'm 5'6", so this is still a BMI of 28ish, but that's the lightest I've been as an adult (when I was 18!) and I liked being a 12/14. My friend is getting married in August and I'd love to be able to buy a pretty outfit, so that's my target date. That give me just over 4 months to lose 4.5 stone, which, judging by some of the amazing results, should be doable if I stick to it. I may decide to edit this lower when I get there, but I've got plenty to get started with.
I like the idea of having a diary, even if noone wants to read it, because I'll be able to go back and see where I had good days and bad and hopefully learn from myself - I think this will really help me get to grips with my binge eating. I can eat a lot in one sitting, and I mean a lot, and I don't think I'm alone in sitting and eating until I feel sick and thinking, 'Oh I've opened this now, might as well finish it' and ending up feeling even worse. I think the thing that makes me feel even worse is that I got my DH in on the action too. When we got together 9 years ago he was about 12 stone. Before he started on his own weight loss journey (through healthy eating and exercise - this is going well for him) he had ballooned to 18 stone too. I feel awful that I inflicted this upon him, which makes me want to eat. I need to break the cycle, for both of our sakes.
I went to see my CDC on Friday morning to stock up on my goodies for the week. I took 4 a day, so that I'd have extras if I was struggling and needed any extra over the first few days. I was very excited (I still am) and I rushed in to work with my porridge for breakfast and soup for lunch. Within an hour I was on my way home again, having been struck by the dreaded tummy bug that's been going round work (just in time for Annual Accounts as well!) and have spent the weekend holed up at home and suffering. However, I have been 100% for (nearly) three days and I am so pleased with myself.
I haven't had any headaches and because I've been poorly, I haven't missed eating at all!
I've spoken to my CDC this afternoon and she's suggested that I come off SS until I'm better. However, she understood that I probably wouldn't agree with her and we have compromised that I will go up to SS+ for a couple of days, just to get some solids in me, and I'm to stick to the lactose free shakes I have left (5, so hopefully I'll be feeling better pretty quickly). I'm not sure how I feel about this. I understand that I need to get better, that's why I got in touch with her, but I'm slightly disappointed and not at all sure I can eat anything - I still have a soup to go today!
I feel pretty lucky as well. I've liked nearly everything I've tried so far except the forest fruits, but I don't like forest fruits, so I'm not even really sure why I got it! I even like the porridge, which is great, because I usually have porridge for breakfast anyway.
Right, I'm off to see if we have anything SS+ friendly in the fridge.
x