LittleFlutterby
Fluffy lil flutterby :)
Your weight loss I mean.
I don't know whether my feelings can be classed as the norm or not.
I have lost a lot of weight, and I have done before/now pictures (because i'm not done yet so its not "after"). even though i see a difference, I don't see that there is *that* much of a difference.
What I'm saying is, I struggle to see the difference between me at 22 1/2 stone and me at 14 stone 2lb.
Logically, I know that I'm smaller, I've lost nearly 40% of my body weight for goodness sake! Also the fact that I fit into size 16 clothes, rather than size 28....but its not logic i struggle with.
are there other people who have had similar experiences? People tell me how good I look all the time and I gotta be honest, I hate it. I don't believe them- even people who I trust to tell me the truth all the time I can't in my heart believe them.
I have BDD (body dysmorphic disorder) so my self image is just diabolical anyway. But....I just don't want to feel alone here, you know?
I just feel like a freak at the moment. I should be happy about my loss- but all I do is focus on my fatty bits (my stomach/boobs/arms/legs....) and think I'm still big.
Sometimes I have to stop myself from putting my foot in it too. It's like, often, when people see my before picture I say "yep- I was fat....well, I still am but you know what I mean" and people go MAD at me. They tell me not to be stupid. The thing is though, I genuinely think I AM fat (please understand- I use "fat" in an observational sense, not a negative judgement.)
But, if I saw someone else, same size as I am now, I wouldn't see them as fat. This is just about what I see about ME.
Sorry- this is all rambled, typical of me lol.
Are there any other people out there the same? I feel really isolated tonight
I don't know whether my feelings can be classed as the norm or not.
I have lost a lot of weight, and I have done before/now pictures (because i'm not done yet so its not "after"). even though i see a difference, I don't see that there is *that* much of a difference.
What I'm saying is, I struggle to see the difference between me at 22 1/2 stone and me at 14 stone 2lb.
Logically, I know that I'm smaller, I've lost nearly 40% of my body weight for goodness sake! Also the fact that I fit into size 16 clothes, rather than size 28....but its not logic i struggle with.
are there other people who have had similar experiences? People tell me how good I look all the time and I gotta be honest, I hate it. I don't believe them- even people who I trust to tell me the truth all the time I can't in my heart believe them.
I have BDD (body dysmorphic disorder) so my self image is just diabolical anyway. But....I just don't want to feel alone here, you know?
I just feel like a freak at the moment. I should be happy about my loss- but all I do is focus on my fatty bits (my stomach/boobs/arms/legs....) and think I'm still big.
Sometimes I have to stop myself from putting my foot in it too. It's like, often, when people see my before picture I say "yep- I was fat....well, I still am but you know what I mean" and people go MAD at me. They tell me not to be stupid. The thing is though, I genuinely think I AM fat (please understand- I use "fat" in an observational sense, not a negative judgement.)
But, if I saw someone else, same size as I am now, I wouldn't see them as fat. This is just about what I see about ME.
Sorry- this is all rambled, typical of me lol.
Are there any other people out there the same? I feel really isolated tonight