bubblybooboo
Silver Member
So i started at 15.12 last year, lost loads down to 14.8 then got ill, ended up in hospital, came off plan as couldnt stick to it, had surgery, gained over a stone in a few weeks and now im the biggest ive ever ever been and i feel so embarrassed i don't want to go out, to see friends as all my clothes are too small and i cant afford to buy new wardrobe, im still healing from operation so cant exercise at the mo but i dont think i could do it any way as it hurts me to even walk up the stairs, i could just cry right now! Miss my group where i help out at but embarrassed to go back even tho i know they will support me loads but just cant believe ive gained nearly 2 stone since i lost loads grrr! Need to find some motivation as i ache everywhere, so heavy my back hurts, hubby says he will cook everything ( in between working) if i make sure all the right foods are in so just got to get started and push through the pain of carrying myself about x hubby keeps trying to reassure me but i literally cant stand to look at myself so cant understand how he can still like me? I must sound so sad but if i cant be honest with how i feel i wont move on i suppose x