Pickles
Member
Don't know why i'm feeling so down was ok earlier now I just keep wanting to cry, really miss food so much, they had sausages in lovely white rolls at work today and they smelt so good and then my fiancee asked if he could have a pizza tonight and I didn't have the heart to say no, I don't see why he has to suffer because i'm doing this.
When I got home from work he said he wasn't going to have one as he didn't want to put me through that so I insisted he have one and ordered it for him. It was absolute torture, how I stopped myself from grabbing a slice I don't know.
I know this is all going to be worth it in the end and it is already, I bought a dress in June at a Next clearance store for my friends wedding next week and I couldn't try it on. I tried it on when I got home and the zip only went half way up. Tried it on this week and it fits. This is going to be the first time i've worn a dress to any sort of function since my teens (i'm 35 now). I know that should make me happy but just want to cry tonight.
Sorry to waffle on.
When I got home from work he said he wasn't going to have one as he didn't want to put me through that so I insisted he have one and ordered it for him. It was absolute torture, how I stopped myself from grabbing a slice I don't know.
I know this is all going to be worth it in the end and it is already, I bought a dress in June at a Next clearance store for my friends wedding next week and I couldn't try it on. I tried it on when I got home and the zip only went half way up. Tried it on this week and it fits. This is going to be the first time i've worn a dress to any sort of function since my teens (i'm 35 now). I know that should make me happy but just want to cry tonight.
Sorry to waffle on.