Feeling fat - even after LL?

[In search of me]

Thanks for the lovely rep mark....mags are fine if you can just look at them (as I do occasionally) and know that you wont look like that & its fine that you wont! If you cant then they can be very destructive so you have to ask is it worth it! Before my LL journey my "new me" started with tackling my debts (which I'll be payng till I'm 42!!) and one thing I realised was that I used to spend a bomb on mags (about £25 a month which is crazy!) ..not they are a treat!
I can highly recc getting an allotment! (see blog!) great excercise, VAST satistfaction when things grow; your own fresh veg & lots of socialising plus a great tan & excercise without realising you are!! I love it & really cant imagine life without mine now...You're v. brave GG doing a triathalon! Big hugs & hope you manage to resolve this in your head & you & GB survive a magless/gamesless week without committing any crimes!

 

[Just Do It]

I've been on a diet since I was 8, I can remember the Mr Man notebook I used to write it all down in. 33 (yikes that sounds a lot) years later I'm still trying to get there.

The strange thing is that last year I got a different perspective on the body that made me so want to change it.

I saw my just into teens daughters walking round the edge of the pool and recognised that they had inherited their shape from me. They aren't overweight at all. They looked great in their cossies. They look slim in jeans. They were just different to the other slighter and skinny girls.

The years of me trying to look like those slighter and skinny girls, something I could never be, have, like so many, resulted in years of yo-yo dieting and the current need to lose 5.5 stones. ( At only 5 ft that looks pretty bad)

OK, I know it's obvious but it has taken me a long time to get there. I will never have long willowy legs that tan easy. But at that moment of being in the sun last year, looking at my girls at last I have realised that what I had was fine. So I won't get to teen shaped legs at the end of this but if I can tell them they have lovely figures - and mean it - then that must mean that I should be content and I think I will be when I get there.

Any way Gaijing girl I thought you looked better than just allright on your photos, I looked up your blog and did a double take, you look fantastic.

And a triathalon, wow thats really impressive.

All the best
Claire

 

[littleblue]

Wow, wow, wow what a fantastic thread and what great replies. The only thing I want to add is this.
Think of the most attractive people you know, real people not stars, men and women. Have a good look at them next time you see them. I bet you anything they are not perfect. One will have a slightly large nose/mouth/ears, one will have tiny eyes, ugly elbows, unruly hair. But one thing they will all have is a confidence, they are happy in their skin. If you believe you are attractive, you are. And if you don't believe it, pretend. Pretend long enough and you will start to believe it yourself. Especially when other people start treating you as if you are.
Now look at the stars, are they really that fantastic? I know plenty of people prettier than Britney and I actually do know Kelly Brooks, and some of the friends she used to hang around with when she lived near me were way more sexy than she was. You would have passed her in the street when she was in civvies!

 

[DQ]

Love this thread. Gonna subscribe and re-read cos it's cool

 

[Mrs Lard]

Hello gaijingirl

Checked out your blog for an update and then saw your post here. So glad you are feeling ok, in spite of the blip. It's your mind that needs the TLC. Two things:

I know just what you mean about needing something different to the studying. After my finals (LONG time ago), I bought a load of "airport" novels - big blockbusters by women and they were utter bliss. But back to you...please ditch the magazine habit (if you really, really need a celebrity fix, go to one of the online blogs - Perez Hilton - etc, which are bitchy but show fewer airbrushed shots) and INSTEAD buy some really lovely stuff for the bath (another great antidote to the studying).

Second, you are under a lot of pressure right now so if abstinence is too hardcore, listen to your body. But I think you already know what's right for you. Just try to finish, once and for all, and then move onto the next stage - post-exams, post-Development, post-old behaviours.

I wish you well and much luck as you finish the exams/essays/studying. You're doing really well so hang on in there.

Big kiss.

Mrs L xxxx

 

[gaijingirl]

Thanks - loads more great replies! It's definitely true about the confidence thing - I think my head is still trying to catch up with my new body iykwim!!

I still managed to lose 2lbs last night despite my blip. My final exams are in two weeks time (Mrs Lard - this is my second time round, last time was 11 years ago! ) - and then I have all summer to do my dissertation. So I just need to keep my head down, keep studying and burn fat!!

It's interesting to hear that Kelly Brook isn't "all that"!! Although I'm sure she is lovely actually. I once saw her being witnessed by the (extremely mysoginistic) Frank Skinner and he tore her apart - quite unnecessarily I thought. She actually made quite a lot of intelligent comments during the interview - all of which were edited out of the final cut!! Anyway, I'm gradually feeling better about myself this week. I'm getting on with my revision. I'm applying for big jobs and some other possibilities that could make a huge difference to my life.

I had a goal that I would wear a bikini this summer. I feel way too wobbly to do that now - but I reckon after I've done the triathlon I ought to be much more toned - and watching Gok Wan last night I reckon there will be a bikini (ok so it might be more on the tankini side) out there that will do me!! It's wierd I should feel this way as paradoxically, I have no problems with being naked in company - having spent so much time in Japan where I would bathe publically and in the nude several times a week, I'm the first to strip off at the gym/sauna - and get my baps (although they're more like flaps at the moment) out at the beach. Odd that the "bikini" has become such a thing for me!

Thanks all for plenty of food for thought!