Musical Missy
Full Member
Hi everyone
As of last week I have been SS'ing for 6 months and have lost 6 and a half stone to date. Until Christmas I didn't eat ANYTHING apart from my packs and then I had a few days off over Christmas (which I had promised myself before I started the diet) and the day after boxing day I went straight back on the pack - not a problem. The whole of January however has been pretty bad so far as SS'ing is concerned.
I've never been a binge eater and nothing has changed - I haven't binged and I haven't picked at food - its just been plain grilled chicken, grilled mushrooms, cottage cheese and pickled red cabbage - weird combination I know but oddly nice! Its been when I'm on my way home from work and I've thought about it in the car and even go so far as going into the supermarket and buying the food, the more I think about it the more I convince myself 'its alright'. Last Friday though on my way home from my CDC I went mad and bought fish and chips - despite the fact I'd just had a 5lb loss at my weigh in, I was upset (non-diet related) and even though I knew it wouldn't make me feel better - I convinced myself it would. It obviously didn't and they made me feel ill and I thought that would be the end of it and now SS'ing wouldn't be a problem. Saturday night however saw me ordering in Pizza (which sadly didn't make me feel ill) and I just don't know why I'm self-sabotaging like this. The pizza incident came after I spent the afternoon with a really good friend of mine who I haven't seen in person since a few weeks before Christmas and he went on all afternoon about how fantastic I'm looking - so why did I then go home and feel the need to eat.
Yesterday several people during the day at work commented on how great I look and that I look ridiculously healthy and how well I'm doing -so I went to Sainsbury's on the way home and bought chicken, mushrooms and cottage cheese which I've also eaten tonight as well.
Whats the matter with me? Why can't I just get on with the SS'ing like I've been doing for months before now? I have never had a weigh in since I started LL/CD where I've put weight on but I'm pretty sure tomorrow's WI will be my first gain although only 1 or 2lbs at most (fingers crossed)
The worst thing is everyone around me, family, friends etc keep on telling me how well I'm doing, how amazing my will power is and how they don't know how I do it - yet secretly (I live on my own) I feel like I'm failing but don't know how to turn it around.
I always have my 3 packs and 5/6 litres of waters but these food 'blips' are getting me down.
I come on Minimins pretty much everyday but this is the first time where I actually feel the need to ask for help. My CDC although lovely and bless him he tries, is not much use and is struggling on CD himself (far more than me I get the impression) so I don't really feel he would be any help sadly.
Maybe I just need a good kick up the arse? I've still got another 3 and a bit stone to get to goal and I just know I'll always regret it if i don't get there - I'm currently the smallest I've been since the age of 13/14 (I think!) so any smaller than this is unchartered territory - I wore a size 12 skirt to work today - 6 months ago I was wearing size 24 jeans and they were on the tight side - I'm just struggling with my perspective at the moment I think.
Sorry for this somewhat epic post - I'm hoping it'll make me feel better:sigh:
MM x
As of last week I have been SS'ing for 6 months and have lost 6 and a half stone to date. Until Christmas I didn't eat ANYTHING apart from my packs and then I had a few days off over Christmas (which I had promised myself before I started the diet) and the day after boxing day I went straight back on the pack - not a problem. The whole of January however has been pretty bad so far as SS'ing is concerned.
I've never been a binge eater and nothing has changed - I haven't binged and I haven't picked at food - its just been plain grilled chicken, grilled mushrooms, cottage cheese and pickled red cabbage - weird combination I know but oddly nice! Its been when I'm on my way home from work and I've thought about it in the car and even go so far as going into the supermarket and buying the food, the more I think about it the more I convince myself 'its alright'. Last Friday though on my way home from my CDC I went mad and bought fish and chips - despite the fact I'd just had a 5lb loss at my weigh in, I was upset (non-diet related) and even though I knew it wouldn't make me feel better - I convinced myself it would. It obviously didn't and they made me feel ill and I thought that would be the end of it and now SS'ing wouldn't be a problem. Saturday night however saw me ordering in Pizza (which sadly didn't make me feel ill) and I just don't know why I'm self-sabotaging like this. The pizza incident came after I spent the afternoon with a really good friend of mine who I haven't seen in person since a few weeks before Christmas and he went on all afternoon about how fantastic I'm looking - so why did I then go home and feel the need to eat.
Yesterday several people during the day at work commented on how great I look and that I look ridiculously healthy and how well I'm doing -so I went to Sainsbury's on the way home and bought chicken, mushrooms and cottage cheese which I've also eaten tonight as well.
Whats the matter with me? Why can't I just get on with the SS'ing like I've been doing for months before now? I have never had a weigh in since I started LL/CD where I've put weight on but I'm pretty sure tomorrow's WI will be my first gain although only 1 or 2lbs at most (fingers crossed)
The worst thing is everyone around me, family, friends etc keep on telling me how well I'm doing, how amazing my will power is and how they don't know how I do it - yet secretly (I live on my own) I feel like I'm failing but don't know how to turn it around.
I always have my 3 packs and 5/6 litres of waters but these food 'blips' are getting me down.
I come on Minimins pretty much everyday but this is the first time where I actually feel the need to ask for help. My CDC although lovely and bless him he tries, is not much use and is struggling on CD himself (far more than me I get the impression) so I don't really feel he would be any help sadly.
Maybe I just need a good kick up the arse? I've still got another 3 and a bit stone to get to goal and I just know I'll always regret it if i don't get there - I'm currently the smallest I've been since the age of 13/14 (I think!) so any smaller than this is unchartered territory - I wore a size 12 skirt to work today - 6 months ago I was wearing size 24 jeans and they were on the tight side - I'm just struggling with my perspective at the moment I think.
Sorry for this somewhat epic post - I'm hoping it'll make me feel better:sigh:
MM x