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RainbowRose

Gold Member
G: 10st7lb
SO angry right now. What the heck is wrong with me? Seriously?!!! Yesterday I didn't have a great food day. I had good food for meals but snacked on 4 chocolate digestives, 2 flumps, a pack of malteasers and some rocky road bites (6 to be precise). I told myself - 'no worries - you just have to be super good and work harder tomorrow'. Today I've had great food choices for breakfast and lunch, but also had about 6 chocolate rich tea biscuits, about 5 chocolate vianese whirl biscuits and 3 mallow teacakes. WTF am I doing??? And why??? How am I EVER going to fo this if I keep doing stupid, greedy things like this. Am beyond upset with myself - just want to sit and cry right now :(


Are you okay? so sorry to hear you are having a tough time. This whole dieting thing sucks sometimes, i hate the mind games involved in trying to do the right thing, all the time!
Please believe me when i say, I've tried and failed too many times too mention, and was the type of person that read a success story..and would still think, its okay for them, its easy for them to say etc etc..i can't do it..it was so soul destroying, and nothing and nobody could make me believe that i would do it one day....i just gave up all the time..BUT as all the other dieters used to say in mags etc to me...it can be done, it is damn hard at times, and not every weigh in is good news AND then there are the days you are suffering now, when hunger takes over and before you know it, the biscuit packet is empty etc, and it brings your mood right down, i fully understand those days hun..but write them off, today and yesterday didn't go to plan..so let's think of tomorrow's plan instead and take it hour by hour. Try planning your meals and keeping extra busy between meal times, to help avoid temptation....you'll feel so good when you have done it for the full day..and if you managed one day, then you will have the ability to survive day 2, day 3, day 4 etc etc.. and if you slip up, well it happens, don't let the temptation get to you the following day, try to recognise the triggers. I used to eat through boredom and habit, not always hunger.....

If you ever need to pm me, please feel free, i'll always answer and try to help you asap :)

Good luck for tomorrow..its a brand new day..and you are in charge, not the biscuit tin ;)
 
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Pomooky125

Silver Member
Hi Angeljade - grrrr I have just spent ages typing a post and it disappeared! But I'm not giving up!

I empathise with all you say. I always give up, give in and stuff my face. Why? I'm not sure there's an answer but I am not wasting any more time looking for it.

I have wasted several years gaining and losing the same weight, eating the same Maltesers, Viennese bics (yep, they're nice aren't they?). I've wasted too long waiting to buy some new jeans, a skirt for work, go OUT for goodness sake....

Angeljade, we have to make tomorrow day 1 and then start sticking the days together. You can still lose a good amount of weight before the end of October. Forget the cookie meltdown, the flumps (what???) and I will erase the crispy caramel thingies.

I am good at avoiding - the mirror, shopping, socialising. I will now avoid chocolate, biscuits and cake and cut down my humongous portions. I am sick of feeling fat, tired and bloated and hiding indoors. I do not want to inflict this on my lovely son and don't want to get ill. How about you Angeljade - shall we go for it? Tomorrow? Just one day?

All the best Pomooky XX
 

RainbowRose

Gold Member
G: 10st7lb
How are you today hun? good advice from Pomookey there :)...and to ease your mind just a wee bit..flumps are fat free ;)

chin up, today is the start of your future..go for it girl :)
 

angeljaide

Full Member
S: 13st11lb C: 13st11lb G: 10st9lb BMI: 33.1 Loss: 0st0lb(0%)
Thanks you Rainbow and Pomooky. Pomooky - I notice your weight is 129lb?? Is that right?

I planned my meals for today so that should be OK. I did 30 minutes on the cross trainer while watching Downton Abbey last night and I am planning to go to the gym this evening. I felt really low yesterday after I had eaten all that stuff. I actually felt ill and was saying to myself that it is so stupid to eat that stuff when I know it makes me feel so rubbish, inside and out! But I guess it's a bit like telling an alcoholic or drug addict or smoker to just quit. Not as easy as it sounds even when you know how much better you and your life will be if you do.

Today I feel more calm about things and there is a little ripple of determination to prove to myself that I can have a good day. Just one. Because today is the only day I need to work on. I did weigh this morning (I know, I know, I'm not meant to) to see that I have already gained back the 2lb I lost last week, so now I need to lose that AND at least another 1 on top! But, if I just have a good day, then another, then anoth, I am sure I can do it.

Thanks for the support - it helps so much more than can be explained :)
 

RainbowRose

Gold Member
G: 10st7lb
That's the spirit hun..now just concentrate on that 2lb melting off for next weigh in :)

I can relate to the horrible depressed feeing when eating rubbish on other diets, it put me in a terrible mood for a good 24 hours afterwards..so not good, and not the way i wanted to feel..so THIS TIME....i'm going to succeed..we both are!!!! :)
 

Pomooky125

Silver Member
Hi Angeljaide -sorry about getting your name wrong! I weigh 134 pounds now but did weigh 120 so the extra stone has made a "big" difference. None of my clothes fit and I can't bring myself to buy yet another size up. I have been ok today food wise but then I always am until the evening! I only just calculated that I am on my way to 10 st! This has shocked me - I have been in denial. I am off to make chili chicken now and glug some water.

Hope you do well today too. We are almost there!

Pomooky XXX
 

Aymz

Silver Member
S: 16st7lb C: 16st2lb G: 11st0lb BMI: 36.5 Loss: 0st5lb(2.16%)
Hi angeljaide, been reading your diary. I have the same problem with food..i have healthy meals and snack on junk. Something I found useful was to plan meals in advance and make sure there's no junk in the house. Stock up on fruit and veg and fat free yogurts and snack on them instead. Also, your fluctuations may be down to water levels. Just stick to the healthy eating and excercise and weigh just once a week. Good luck!
 

angeljaide

Full Member
S: 13st11lb C: 13st11lb G: 10st9lb BMI: 33.1 Loss: 0st0lb(0%)
Well, yesterday was a good day :) I ate healthy stuff all day, did not give in to the temptation of either the biscuit tin or tin of chocs at work and didn't snack at home. I also went and did a spinning class for 45 mins. So, now all I have to do is concentrate on making today an equally good day. Out for a meal with the boyfriend later, but can make a healthy choice I am sure, and will be having a few glasses of wine. Am going to the gym after work though so that will help I hope :) This weekend I have a Hen Doo on Saturday which is a 5 course meal (!) but I am hoping I can keep it healthy enough and Sunday there is no reasons I should be tempted with anything, ready for a (hopefully) good weigh in on Monday! Thanks for the messages and advice. Meal planning is something I need to get to grips with for sure!
 

xKimmyRx

soon to be slim...x
S: 15st8lb C: 15st2lb G: 9st7lb BMI: 33.2 Loss: 0st6lb(2.75%)
Wow ur diary is a great read!

Hope ur havin a good day, keep at it!

K x

xkimmyx
xSoon2bMrsSlimx
 

Pomooky125

Silver Member
Enjoy your meal Angeljaide, We cracked it! Here's to more (after you've had a lovely time of course)

Wishing you a great weekend.. Pomooky XXX
 

angeljaide

Full Member
S: 13st11lb C: 13st11lb G: 10st9lb BMI: 33.1 Loss: 0st0lb(0%)
Morning. No weigh-in today due to staying at boyfriends last night - will weigh tomorrow. Some thoughts today though from over the weekend. I did weigh on Saturday evening before I went out for my meal and I had lost 1lb, so was reasonably happy that I could get tio 2lb by weigh in. However, had my meal (4 courses - did have pudding but just a small apple crumble and custard, all other menu choices healthy) and weighed sunday morning and was shocked that it had gone up by 3lb! Gutted :( Yesterday not too bad though we did have a celebratory indian take away as the boyfriend had complete his last olympic triathlon of the season (had 3 popuddums, half a naan bread, half a dupiaza and pillau rice - not great I know). Have exercises every single day. But am really worried about tomorrow as I am thinking I might have STS at best, gained at worst. Will have a good day today and see what happens.
 

angeljaide

Full Member
S: 13st11lb C: 13st11lb G: 10st9lb BMI: 33.1 Loss: 0st0lb(0%)
Weighed this morning. Lost 1lb.
 

angeljaide

Full Member
S: 13st11lb C: 13st11lb G: 10st9lb BMI: 33.1 Loss: 0st0lb(0%)
Thanks pomooky and thanks KateR!
 
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