Greeneyes will PERSEVERE.........

[Katycakes]

Hmm, wise words from KD... 3 packs & then you can tweak & adapt, but make sure you are getting the nutrition hun. Good luck on the journey... will be watching to see how you go as I too would like to be a little less... but have taken so long to haul myself back onto the raft am not going to risk falling overboard again just yet! Thanks for your support on my thread Greeneyes, tis much appreciated.

xxx

 

[Bess]

Hi Lelly, thanks for that, but it is definately not a kneejerk reaction to over-eating, as I know the weight comes off again without even cutting back, as it did when we went away for our anniversary etc. My goal was always 10 stone, but I always thought that I would never get there, but in the back of my mind I wanted to get to 9 stone 6 which is what I weighed for most of my teenage years before I started having children. When I got to 10 stone i was totally fed up with CD and it was screwing up my head so was glad to move on, but have felt ever since that at some point I wanted to reduce my weight slightly more, but never felt ready for it.... I now know that I am able to maintain, I know that if I put on a few lb from over indulgence it will come back off but just want to lower my weight a bit more, definately down to 9 stone 6, and possibly down to 9 stone, but will assess that once I have an idea of how quickly the weight will come off, I know I dont want to be on this diet forever, but wont be happy until I reach the 9 stone 6.... I feel I am now ready to tackle this last bit of weight.... thanks for your concerns though, I totally understand where you are coming from.

Linda, I am so glad that you are on Minis. You always seem to be just a step or two ahead of me and I am able to learn from your experience!!

In a few weeks time I would have written the above post, with differences in the weights of course, because I'm taller than you. I'm happy to maintain just now and am learning how to do that but I know that I'll want to shift the last stone (ish) before too long.
So keep posting for us all please, so helpful to me especially!
Is the dog ok? After the chocolate binge?! Mine's a labrador, and as you probably know they think of their tums all the time. Funny that I could always keep a better eye on the dog's weight than my own.

 

[Greeneyes11]

Right, am adding an extra shake to my day, which means that my total calories come in at just under 1000.....

Had some devestating news yesterday afternoon, my daughter (who is 15) has a best friend, who is almost like another of my children. She is always staying round here, comes to church with us on a Sunday, comes on holiday with us, and is basically always here (not quite as much since she has had a boyfriend)... anyway, her brother died yesterday afternoon, he was 16. I had seen the air ambulance hovering around before dropping around where the school is, I could also hear lots of sirens, but although worried a bit about the children at school realised I would have heard if anything was wrong. Well after school everyone was gossiping about the air ambulance landing in the road directly outside the school and that there were tons of police in the road opposite, again thought nothing of it... my daughter had a detention after school, this girls mum normally picks her up from school and my son who comes home with them said that her friend was crying and that her aunt had picked them up. When daughter got home from school she went round her friends house and it turns out that the air ambulance/police were at her friends house. Her brother had been found dead on the bathroom floor by her other brother who is 21.... he had to break the door down. I cannot even comprehend what they are going through at this moment, I also have a 16 year old daughter and can not even bear to think how I would feel if something awful happened to her. Her friend came round for a while last night, she knows we know, but we didn't speak about her brother, I think she came round to get away from it all..... this morning I feel awful as I slept so badly last night so i think an extra shake may definately help today.
But good news, my scales went down again today to 9 stone 13.8lb, so back to my normal weight and anything after this will be a bonus (although I did tip the scales at 9 stone 12 something once).... CDC coming this afternoon to weigh and bring me more products....

I think Bess that sometimes on this diet we just reach the end of our reserves, especially after being on it so long, I felt my head was really screwed up by the end of it, but now I am calmer, more settled and know that I can maintain, so am now at a place where I am ready to lose that last bit.

Glad you are back Katy, was really worried about you....

 

[Katycakes]

Oh Greeneyes how awful, so sad... that poor family. Big hugs... things like this just shake you totally.

xxx

 

[alexmummy07]

Greeneyes, sorry to read such horrible news.
Hugs to you as it must have really shaken you and your family up too.

xx

 

[Greeneyes11]

Scales are still going down so am pleased with that although I am struggling with the food issue again, I just want to eat more, but am determined to shift this last bit of weight. Was aiming for 1 stone down to 8stone 13lb, but this is not set in stone and I dont want to be scrawny, so will stop when I feel more comfortable.

Daughters friend stayed round Wednesday night, and neither went to school yesterday, they then spent the day with friend and her family, reminiscing about the good times and funny times that they remember her brother, and went and visited the places he loved, she said they all smiled and she thinks it was good for them all. Unfortunately they haven't found the cause of death and his body was sent to Addenbrooks yesterday for further tests, but it could be up to 6 weeks before they can bury him... but daughter is back at school today and the shock is wearing off...

Have a busy day today, other daughter has dentist, pregnant DD (baby is due today) has a hospital appointment which I take her too, so it will be at least lunchtime before I get to sit down again... haven't had time for exercise this morning, but have done it 3 times this week, and that is what I am aiming for as a minimum, so all well and good on that front... I have been using my slendertone every day though.

Hope you all have a good day..

 

[Bess]

Oh Linda, just caught up, what sad news.
These things just knock us for 6 don't they? - his poor family.
Well done on the scales going down. I don't want to be scrawny either, I hope I'll know too when I feel 'right'.
I can't really believe I've come this far. I just never, ever thought I could do it. I must remember this sometimes when things aren't going to plan.
Hope today is good, sounds like a busy one!

 

[curlywurly1234]

Hey Linda..
Just caught up on your diary.. Im so sorry to hear about your daughters friends brother that is so tragic.. I cannot begin to imagine what her poor family are going through.
Well done that your scales are going down hon thats fab.
take care xxx

 

[Wales]

Linda, sorry to hear about the sad news, it is so very tragic.

Good news on the scales going down and thanks for your wise words on my diary, I was thinking about that calorie book today so it has told me the name which is what I needed to know. Think I will buy tomorrow.

Hope you get some news about your pregnant daughter, how exciting for you all!!

 

[Greeneyes11]

Well took pregnant DD to hospital today, baby is actually due today, but still no sign, they have booked her in for next Friday for a stretch and sweep which she is determined not to make. Her little boy was 6 days late, so here's hoping this one wont be later.... hmmm reminds me, must get on and make a card for her.... luckily I know what it is.
Have had a good day today, have stuck to plan, although my mixamousse turned out more like mix a slobby mess.... oh well not sure what went wrong, first time it has failed though. Have had tuna today for lunch and dinner, the tuna in spring water, am getting fed up with quorn and cottage cheese... lol lets hope I dont get fed up with tuna before I finish this 810/900 part of my diet.

 

[Bess]

You'll be fine Linda, I think you are great starting the diet again to get rid of the last bit.
I'd like to be doing that too, but I know I need to get to grips with maintaining properly first.
Just stick with it, it'll be gone in no time. You can tell us the losses soon and it'll all be worthwhile!

 

[Greeneyes11]

Scales still going down, but have realised today that I really cannot afford to do this anymore and dont know what to do.... I will buy the stuff from my CDC on Wednesday as I have already ordered it, but after that I cannot afford anymore, but I should have enough for 2 weeks from Wednesday.... hmmm

Have been good today, only eaten to plan, but have really struggled this evening. I am starving hungry, drunk lots of decaf coffee with milk from my allowance, but am still starving hungry, I was so close to caving, but wouldn't move from my computer chair, then watched casualty and wouldn't move from the bed... confined to my bedroom tonight... lol but I made it, hopefully after all this struggling there will be another loss on the scales tomorrow and that I wont be so flippin hungry... I thought day 3 would be the hardest, not day 6.... oh well onwards and upwards... lol

 

[Wales]

Admire your strength and determination - you know that distraction is the key when you are going through this stage, but hunger is a mare.

Any news on your daughter? That would be some good news and a big distraction!!! Stay strong x

 

[Katycakes]

You can do it Greeneyes. It is so hard to justify the £ once you've been off CD, but remember you do actually save on 'real' food... and it's a faster route to your end goal. I admire your determination too hun, hang on in there!

xxx

 

[Greeneyes11]

The problem is it is extra money, as with 7 other people in the house I still have to cook the same amount of food as I didn't really eat that much of it once maintaining, so Cambridge is on top of what I would normally buy.

Anyway, got up this morning and thought I had really bad pains in my stomach, like TOTM pains, but it isn't due until Tuesday at the earliest, only took last pill Friday night. Since being up I have realised that the pain is across my kidneys at the back, and now I am really worried that being back on Cambridge has caused this, as when I saw the Doctor in August she said my kidneys were under strain, and I have now been back on Cambridge a week and worried that the diet is causing this.... so have stuck to diet today, but not really sure what to do... maybe I just sat awkwardly yesterday causing the ache and pain across my kidneys and am worrying about nothing (dont think I did sit awkwardly tho)... or whether I should stop Cambridge and do WW instead....

 

[Katycakes]

Ouch... that's a worry. Maybe see doc for advice tomorrow? No diet is worth making yourself ill for, and WW or SW could also get you to goal... I think it is so hard to step back down again after maintaining, mentally as well as physically. Our bodies are not gonna be impressed! Hope the pain goes away hun.

xxx

 

[Bess]

Oh dear, this is a worry. If I was you I should immediately go up to 1000 or 1200 cal and make sure you are drinking enough and see how it goes. Be better to lose weight slowly and not be ill. Kidney damage is no joke. Hope you are ok. Be careful.

I know just what you mean about the expense of CD and feeding a big family on top. I always felt guilty about spending so much money on me - there isn't that much spare around here.

I suppose that moving up the plans might help that too?

 

[Laura Croft]

Sorry to hear about the pain Greeneyes. I hope you get things sorted soon. For what it's worth, if you need to change plans or diets, don't feel bad. There's no doubt your CDC has had people cancel before after placing the order.

There's been a lot of MMs with healthy BMIs that have found 810 hard/ not suitable. Take care of yourself.

 

[Greeneyes11]

Okay, so I was a bit worried about the pain, at times it was so bad I wanted to cry, so when everyone else sat down to their dinner I decided to eat with them, and did overdo it as I had been on 810, especially as they had steamed pudding for dessert... but... the pain did subside over the next few hours and has now gone completely, so have decided to move up to 1200 as I was nearly on 1000 anyway and see where I go from there, hopefully no more pain. Today I have put on 2lb, no surprise after eating all that food yesterday and also TOTM has started this morning too, but hopefully that 2lb will drop off before official WI on Wednesday.... upwards and onwards... will at least get to 9stone 7 before I quit.... lol Off to check my little yellow book...

Thank you for all your concerns everyone, I did think of ringing the Doctors yesterday, but I knew they would all say it was just the diet and to stop it immediately...

 

[Katycakes]

Think you have done the right thing hun and glad the pain is gone for now... hopefully for good. After coming so far on CD we are all keen to get that 'last little bit' off as fast as poss, me as well, but my own experience ended with months of binge-starve swings and that took a long time to come out of and start to feel safe again.

I know it is very different for you but I can't help suspecting that once we are maintaining there are no more 'quick fixes' and any further change of weight will be slowly done. And maybe that is a good thing. My weight has dropped below 11 stone again for last 5 days and that makes me happier than I can say, especially as it is without any particular effort. I still hope to get to 10 7 one day, but right now I am happy to be 'under 11' and in a happy zone.

Greeneyes, health is not negotiable... and pain is NOT good. If it comes back, please go to the doc? Meanwhile, 1200 is very do-able, will give you a much more workable way of eating and will still help you lose. Win/win situation. Have a great Monday, hun, and hope you are feeling lots better.

xxx