BlackRose
Gold Member
Well, here's the news. As you've probably guessed I've been off the wagon. Oh there's lots of reasons/excuses behind it but it's all very tiring to go into so let me just say a lot of soul searching and mental beating ups have been going on.
I'm trying to turn the negatives into positives and think about what I've learned being away from the safety of LT.
It has actually been a very good time for me lately, I went back to uni having lost a fair bit of weight, I've been loving my classes and I've got some volunteer tutoring work that will help me get into the PGCE and finally -FINALLY become the English teacher I have always wanted to be. But of course being so close to achieving my dream has opened a lot of worm cans and brought a lot of insecurities rushing back to the surface. I know that doing LT and being in control of my life is what gave me the confidence to actually make these moves forward so I am back on today. I still have a lot of work to do inwardly so I don't expect the road ahead to be smooth but I do accept that I NEED LT to help me.
I haven't actually gained any weight which is a little weird so I've only set myself back in time. What's really weird is that, ten days ago at this weight and still on LT I felt AMAZING! I felt pretty and in control. Ten days off LT at the same weight and I feel HUGE and fat and ugly again. Which reveals a lot about how our mental image is vastly made up by how we live our lives, if that makes sense. It's psychological -our self image is NOT just numbers and BMI's. It's not just dress sizes. if we treat ourselves right, if we actively treat ourselves as if we deserve to be healthy and to feel good -we will!
Anyways, I'm back today and soooo looking forward to the euphoria I know is just ahead of me.
GOOD LUCK EVERYONE!!!
I'm trying to turn the negatives into positives and think about what I've learned being away from the safety of LT.
It has actually been a very good time for me lately, I went back to uni having lost a fair bit of weight, I've been loving my classes and I've got some volunteer tutoring work that will help me get into the PGCE and finally -FINALLY become the English teacher I have always wanted to be. But of course being so close to achieving my dream has opened a lot of worm cans and brought a lot of insecurities rushing back to the surface. I know that doing LT and being in control of my life is what gave me the confidence to actually make these moves forward so I am back on today. I still have a lot of work to do inwardly so I don't expect the road ahead to be smooth but I do accept that I NEED LT to help me.
I haven't actually gained any weight which is a little weird so I've only set myself back in time. What's really weird is that, ten days ago at this weight and still on LT I felt AMAZING! I felt pretty and in control. Ten days off LT at the same weight and I feel HUGE and fat and ugly again. Which reveals a lot about how our mental image is vastly made up by how we live our lives, if that makes sense. It's psychological -our self image is NOT just numbers and BMI's. It's not just dress sizes. if we treat ourselves right, if we actively treat ourselves as if we deserve to be healthy and to feel good -we will!
Anyways, I'm back today and soooo looking forward to the euphoria I know is just ahead of me.
GOOD LUCK EVERYONE!!!