EmMUK
Trying Hard!
it's been ages since I've posted and it's because I have been going through so much turmoil with illness and diet not fitting and OA causing emotions to come to the fore etc. not really excuses but they are real. anyway I thought you would like an update as to what's going on.
I finally decided 2 weeks ago that I needed to have a break from flogging myself on the CD higher plans. My health wasn't doing great with constant viruses and my emotions were all over the place and I knew I needed a break. It took so much heartache to say bye to cd because it's been so amazing for me, but I knew that I needed to break for however long.
I also knew that this wasn't the end of my weight loss journey, after all I really do Mean It This Time!!
so I sat down and worked out a healthy eating plan, which is pretty much based on SW now I look at it, and have been applying it in ernest for the last 10 days. well I had my monthly GP check yesterday and I have lost 5lbs and I am just thrilled.
I am eating, which is such a massive luxury; and I am enjoying the food and I am not craving anything which I was when I was fighting staying on CD. I am not overeating at all which is fantastic and in fact my portion sizes are decreasing day to day. The plan connects entirely with OA and that means that I am able to feel more positive that things are going right and that in turn has led to my pre-occupation with food to really alleviate.
also I have realised this week, whilst potty training Rachel, that I am so much calmer now than I was pre CD or even on CD. It's like the life change is really being enacted and I know that this excess weight will leave me and I will be healthier and happier than I am even now.
the other big thing is that I have seen a plastic surgeon and he has been so positive about me getting a full abdominoplasty when I loose another 2 stone. he was so great about seeing all the good bits which are shrinking nicely and really going through pros and cons of the surgery. I am not 100% convinced that it's the right thing and IceMooses diary gives me the willies; but I am 99% of the way there because it's less about vanity and more about the pain of the loose skin and fat and muscle which just won't shrink after 30 years of abuse.
so there you go, I am feeling so great and just wanted to share that WEMITTS isn't (as I thought before) about sticking to the same plan constantly to the bitter end; but more about loosing in a way that works for each of us for now and for the future.
thanks for listening
I finally decided 2 weeks ago that I needed to have a break from flogging myself on the CD higher plans. My health wasn't doing great with constant viruses and my emotions were all over the place and I knew I needed a break. It took so much heartache to say bye to cd because it's been so amazing for me, but I knew that I needed to break for however long.
I also knew that this wasn't the end of my weight loss journey, after all I really do Mean It This Time!!
so I sat down and worked out a healthy eating plan, which is pretty much based on SW now I look at it, and have been applying it in ernest for the last 10 days. well I had my monthly GP check yesterday and I have lost 5lbs and I am just thrilled.
I am eating, which is such a massive luxury; and I am enjoying the food and I am not craving anything which I was when I was fighting staying on CD. I am not overeating at all which is fantastic and in fact my portion sizes are decreasing day to day. The plan connects entirely with OA and that means that I am able to feel more positive that things are going right and that in turn has led to my pre-occupation with food to really alleviate.
also I have realised this week, whilst potty training Rachel, that I am so much calmer now than I was pre CD or even on CD. It's like the life change is really being enacted and I know that this excess weight will leave me and I will be healthier and happier than I am even now.
the other big thing is that I have seen a plastic surgeon and he has been so positive about me getting a full abdominoplasty when I loose another 2 stone. he was so great about seeing all the good bits which are shrinking nicely and really going through pros and cons of the surgery. I am not 100% convinced that it's the right thing and IceMooses diary gives me the willies; but I am 99% of the way there because it's less about vanity and more about the pain of the loose skin and fat and muscle which just won't shrink after 30 years of abuse.
so there you go, I am feeling so great and just wanted to share that WEMITTS isn't (as I thought before) about sticking to the same plan constantly to the bitter end; but more about loosing in a way that works for each of us for now and for the future.
thanks for listening