And I've gone AWOL too, I had a couple of weeks off plan after a family visit where I said yes to a bacon butty and that was the beginning of the end...after consuming my own body weight of pizza chips cake etc, and a lake of wine, I had put 9lbs on. But, at least I went back. I lost 8 of those 9 the next week, and I'm back on track - mostly - again.
But...I feel as though I'm dogged by the black shadow of my urge to over-eat, and it's never far behind. It's as though I've been dieting, and bingeing, and starving, then dieting, etc etc all my life and I can't break the habit, and I'm nearly 50, not the right age for for new tricks. Just right now, I'd really like some cake, not just a slice, but a whole one. And then another.
Having said that, I've successfully managed another binge-free night, so maybe I should adapt the AA mantra of one day at a time. And I'm now the lowest I've been for 12 years or so, so maybe I should stop beating myself up and just get on with it...
