SexyBecks1
is loving CWP xx
Well, it's not really the diet as such but it's my OH. I know he loves me, fat or thin, but me doing this diet is really starting to get to him now as he didn't think it would be going on for this long.
We do still do stuff like go for drinks etc but there are other things that we don't do anymore. We don't eat at the same time anymore. I'm always so busy with work, LL , the gym and sorting out clothes etc, we don't tend to have time to sit down together.
Also, it does feel a bit me, me, me at the moment with everything we do or I do, is centred around my weight loss and LL.
Then when we are together I must admit I do talk a lot about LL, loosing weight, clothes a lot. and when I talk to my mum on the phone (as she is doing LL as well) all we talk about it LL, weight and clothes. Then there is the Summer Ball which I have managed to convince him to come to (maybe changing my mind now!!) and obviously this is LL orientated.
And then there’s money. Not only am I paying for myself but I am lending my mum money each week for her to be able to do it as well and because of this I cannot afford to save any money. Usually, the money I save pays for a foreign holiday and the money my OH saves goes on the house. So because his money is still going on the house we are completely forgoing a holiday this year.
So all this is making him really unhappy because me being on this diet means that he has nothing to look forward to. I must admit I do see where he is coming from to a degree but I know I have to do it.
I was really upset last night and when I was on my way to my mum’s, I got a Mcdonalds. I don’t know why I did it. I didn’t even enjoy it.
I know that I am going to complete this as I feel I have no choice as I don't want to fail and give up and go back to where I was. But knowing that Iain is so unhappy is just making it so much harder to stick to.
Please help??!!
Sorry for the really long post x
We do still do stuff like go for drinks etc but there are other things that we don't do anymore. We don't eat at the same time anymore. I'm always so busy with work, LL , the gym and sorting out clothes etc, we don't tend to have time to sit down together.
Also, it does feel a bit me, me, me at the moment with everything we do or I do, is centred around my weight loss and LL.
Then when we are together I must admit I do talk a lot about LL, loosing weight, clothes a lot. and when I talk to my mum on the phone (as she is doing LL as well) all we talk about it LL, weight and clothes. Then there is the Summer Ball which I have managed to convince him to come to (maybe changing my mind now!!) and obviously this is LL orientated.
And then there’s money. Not only am I paying for myself but I am lending my mum money each week for her to be able to do it as well and because of this I cannot afford to save any money. Usually, the money I save pays for a foreign holiday and the money my OH saves goes on the house. So because his money is still going on the house we are completely forgoing a holiday this year.
So all this is making him really unhappy because me being on this diet means that he has nothing to look forward to. I must admit I do see where he is coming from to a degree but I know I have to do it.
I was really upset last night and when I was on my way to my mum’s, I got a Mcdonalds. I don’t know why I did it. I didn’t even enjoy it.
I know that I am going to complete this as I feel I have no choice as I don't want to fail and give up and go back to where I was. But knowing that Iain is so unhappy is just making it so much harder to stick to.
Please help??!!
Sorry for the really long post x