I'm only on my second pack of the day, and so far it's lovely - like going back to an old friend... I'd missed the taste, weirdly enough, and the texture of the shakes... and it's great to know that my weight will start dropping again now.
I know that feeling, I went back to full LL about a month ago now (after getting over the excitement of food and such, same as you to be honest
). Foodpacks felt so familiar and safe... but .. that feeling will go in a couple of days and you may have to be extra strong.
I know you didn't find the Lite plan useful, but the reason you probably lapsed a little too much was because you suddenly were 'allowed' and it all felt very exciting and new. Maybe in a week's time you could give it another go, because the second time around on total abstinence - it is very, very difficult. ... at least I've found it that way. And LLL feels amazing in comparison to the week I did as a Refresher. Nearly killed me!
I wish you luck, though it sounds to me like you're perhaps a little hung up on numbers. In all honesty, ask yourself: Are you happy with the way you look now? Do you NEED to lose those pounds, or is it purely to satisfy the need to achieve some numerical goal when you actually feel good within yourself?
Maybe, what you need to do at this point, is to continue living and eating healthily (like you've been doing) and really learn from this. Since you're going away shortly, work out how you will continue the healthy eating/exercise plan abroad (it can sometimes be more difficult to maintain when you are unfamiliar with the local cuisines, shops etc).
Then when you come back, and actually have the time to indulge yourself in total absitence again (hopefully you won't need to at all), then you can choose to do so properly, without freaking out over time issues, or any other worries.
(I wish you luck Anna - and Shh. In your photos your body looks so stunning ... if I was anywhere near it I'd be tempted to do naughty things.
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