miss*millinery*student
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' if you went swimming, there would be a displacement '
' its a shame you cant lose some weight, you have such a pretty face '
' hello my little dumpling '
these are just some of the comments ive had to indure over the last couple of weeks from the residents in the care home where i work part time .. love them to bits, but the elderly do have a tendancy to be a little blunt and straight to the point sometimes
im around 5 stone overweight, and the unhappiest ive ever been - i certainly dont need their remarks to remind me that im basically obese, especially in front of a room full colleagues and visitors!
just as upsetting were the looks i had to endure this christmas from friends and family that i hadnt seen for a while - my fathers 70th birthday in the new year was particularly hard- after trying on 3 different outfits and settling for the least restrictive, knowing i didnt exactly look the part, i had to indure everyones eyes settling on my stomach and bottom area where the fabric seemed to settle in such an unflattering way .. never have i felt to huge and frumpy in life before, it should have been a happy occasion but all i could think was how awful i felt and and looked
then the forced 'you look well' comments, when all the other females from the party were given 'you look lovely' 'love your outfit etc'
i guess i only have myself to blame, if you eat in excess (and i do!) you put on weight .. period
im an emotional eater, and i love my food but its making me so so unhappy - my weight has affected every area of life from my social life, my marriage, career prospect to the sad fact that i have only been swimming with my 12 yr old daughter once!
i now have a little boy age 17 mths and i just dont want him to miss out on the things my daughter has, he will be starting nursery this time next year .. so i have decided to take the bull by the horns and try and tackle my weight problem, i am starting the slimming world plan from home and will try and start walking a little more, and gradually build some some excercises into my daily life
my goal is to lose 7lbs a month (6 stones in throughout the year) to become a *slinky* school gate mum by this time next year .. im 42 yrs young so will probably be the oldest mum anyway, i just dont want to be the fattest mum too!
I also want to make up for lost time with my daughter and go swimming and cycling with her and do all the things ive passed up on because of my weight .. perhaps we could go to centerparcs?
this time next year i will have also finished my first years millinery training, and will be needing to fund the next year .. i plan to approach local fashion boutiques, bridal shops etc with my samples to see if they will stock my fascinators and head pieces - to do this i will need to be confident, and feeling and looking good will play a big part in how well i sell myself
other goals i need to work on are my marriage - years of my self loathing, anger and bitterness have taken their toll, my social life - i need to start going out again and having some 'me' time, work/life balance .. i work very very hard for a pittance yet have the the skills to start a beauty business (eyelash extensions and nails) and earn good money and choose my own hours, i offer these treatments to friends and family but currently dont have the confidence to offer my services to a wider audience, i need to build up my speed a little and believe in what i do and that i could potentially give up my care job and work for myself, eventually achieving my life long dream of having a millinery label
so here's to the new year, i truly hope 2012 is the year i finally turn my life around .. not just for me but for my kids and hubby too
' its a shame you cant lose some weight, you have such a pretty face '
' hello my little dumpling '
these are just some of the comments ive had to indure over the last couple of weeks from the residents in the care home where i work part time .. love them to bits, but the elderly do have a tendancy to be a little blunt and straight to the point sometimes
im around 5 stone overweight, and the unhappiest ive ever been - i certainly dont need their remarks to remind me that im basically obese, especially in front of a room full colleagues and visitors!
just as upsetting were the looks i had to endure this christmas from friends and family that i hadnt seen for a while - my fathers 70th birthday in the new year was particularly hard- after trying on 3 different outfits and settling for the least restrictive, knowing i didnt exactly look the part, i had to indure everyones eyes settling on my stomach and bottom area where the fabric seemed to settle in such an unflattering way .. never have i felt to huge and frumpy in life before, it should have been a happy occasion but all i could think was how awful i felt and and looked
then the forced 'you look well' comments, when all the other females from the party were given 'you look lovely' 'love your outfit etc'
i guess i only have myself to blame, if you eat in excess (and i do!) you put on weight .. period
im an emotional eater, and i love my food but its making me so so unhappy - my weight has affected every area of life from my social life, my marriage, career prospect to the sad fact that i have only been swimming with my 12 yr old daughter once!
i now have a little boy age 17 mths and i just dont want him to miss out on the things my daughter has, he will be starting nursery this time next year .. so i have decided to take the bull by the horns and try and tackle my weight problem, i am starting the slimming world plan from home and will try and start walking a little more, and gradually build some some excercises into my daily life
my goal is to lose 7lbs a month (6 stones in throughout the year) to become a *slinky* school gate mum by this time next year .. im 42 yrs young so will probably be the oldest mum anyway, i just dont want to be the fattest mum too!
I also want to make up for lost time with my daughter and go swimming and cycling with her and do all the things ive passed up on because of my weight .. perhaps we could go to centerparcs?
this time next year i will have also finished my first years millinery training, and will be needing to fund the next year .. i plan to approach local fashion boutiques, bridal shops etc with my samples to see if they will stock my fascinators and head pieces - to do this i will need to be confident, and feeling and looking good will play a big part in how well i sell myself
other goals i need to work on are my marriage - years of my self loathing, anger and bitterness have taken their toll, my social life - i need to start going out again and having some 'me' time, work/life balance .. i work very very hard for a pittance yet have the the skills to start a beauty business (eyelash extensions and nails) and earn good money and choose my own hours, i offer these treatments to friends and family but currently dont have the confidence to offer my services to a wider audience, i need to build up my speed a little and believe in what i do and that i could potentially give up my care job and work for myself, eventually achieving my life long dream of having a millinery label
so here's to the new year, i truly hope 2012 is the year i finally turn my life around .. not just for me but for my kids and hubby too
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