BlackRose
Gold Member
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i broke last night. i feel such a fool now cus I posted that thread letting ppl know how i got through my first week. Then the night after my very succesful first weigh in I break. Despite my good news on friday I really struggled. James was working 13hr shifts all weekend so it was only me to see to the kids dinners etc. The smells were just torture to me. I feel really greedy thinking about it now. Am I really so weak and lacking in control of myself?
What makes it worse is that my little boy is so proud of me and had been encouraging me, reminding me of my new outfit I bought to motivate me, reminding me how well Ive done so far. So I had to sneaky eat so he wouldn't know, and God love him its probably why I'm so determined not to fall at the first hurdle. Yes I broke last night, but that doesn't mean I can't do this. It doesn't mean I have to be fat forever. At least I have to believe that or whats the point?
It must be psychological, I've found ways to enjoy my diet but friday and saturday they were just making me sick. Because I was trying to find a way to break it.
The good thing is, I'm right back into it today - and funnily enough-enjoying the shakes again. Before I would have found ways to stretch the bad food days out even longer. I've also done some exercise today to burn some off and am even still slightly in ketosis.
Just gotta keep going and hoping that I'm stronger in future.
i broke last night. i feel such a fool now cus I posted that thread letting ppl know how i got through my first week. Then the night after my very succesful first weigh in I break. Despite my good news on friday I really struggled. James was working 13hr shifts all weekend so it was only me to see to the kids dinners etc. The smells were just torture to me. I feel really greedy thinking about it now. Am I really so weak and lacking in control of myself?
What makes it worse is that my little boy is so proud of me and had been encouraging me, reminding me of my new outfit I bought to motivate me, reminding me how well Ive done so far. So I had to sneaky eat so he wouldn't know, and God love him its probably why I'm so determined not to fall at the first hurdle. Yes I broke last night, but that doesn't mean I can't do this. It doesn't mean I have to be fat forever. At least I have to believe that or whats the point?
It must be psychological, I've found ways to enjoy my diet but friday and saturday they were just making me sick. Because I was trying to find a way to break it.
The good thing is, I'm right back into it today - and funnily enough-enjoying the shakes again. Before I would have found ways to stretch the bad food days out even longer. I've also done some exercise today to burn some off and am even still slightly in ketosis.
Just gotta keep going and hoping that I'm stronger in future.