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I dont know what to do :cry:
My eating disorder has come back, I don't know where to turn, i do not want to go to the doctors there is nothing they can do, i just need to put my feelings down, and ask anybody for their advice, perhaps a diet plan?
I am so slow in losing weight, been doing slimming world for 4 weeks now and have only lost a few pounds, sticking to it 100%, i did EE days for 3-4 days then red days.. This week i have done all red days.
Anyway this whole weekend all i have done is eat, you would be disgusted if i told you exactly what.. I think it is the carbs, when i have some i want more.. Yesterday i had a whole boil in the bag rice with my quorn bolo cus i thought i would do a green day, then within half an hour i ate another boil in the bag, then right after i had 2 bananas, an orange and an apple... then about an hour later i pigged out on more, and it went into today too.. :cry:But i have not made myself sick.. (i used to)
I think i done this because i am so depressed with being fat, i am so hurt, so i eat? I really want to have variety in my diet, and be able to eat what i will enjoy nothing to boring.... I cry when i read menus for EE i can not do that for long cus i gain, or i am starving.. Red days are the only days for me.. ? Has anyone been in this situation ? I heard the more you eat the faster yor matablism works so you lose more? I dont understand this..
I am more inclined to do cambridge all over again, i nearly got to goal with that, i felt so incontrol and never hungry (after first 3 days) BUT i did gain weight when i started eating proply not because of the way the diet is, it was because i just pigged out, because i had levy to do it.... grrr i am so angry and upset...
I so hate myself!! I don't know what to do, how to do it.. i am useless..
I can't even just cut things out, and eat 3 meals a day i have to follow a diet..
Please help me
My eating disorder has come back, I don't know where to turn, i do not want to go to the doctors there is nothing they can do, i just need to put my feelings down, and ask anybody for their advice, perhaps a diet plan?
I am so slow in losing weight, been doing slimming world for 4 weeks now and have only lost a few pounds, sticking to it 100%, i did EE days for 3-4 days then red days.. This week i have done all red days.
Anyway this whole weekend all i have done is eat, you would be disgusted if i told you exactly what.. I think it is the carbs, when i have some i want more.. Yesterday i had a whole boil in the bag rice with my quorn bolo cus i thought i would do a green day, then within half an hour i ate another boil in the bag, then right after i had 2 bananas, an orange and an apple... then about an hour later i pigged out on more, and it went into today too.. :cry:But i have not made myself sick.. (i used to)
I think i done this because i am so depressed with being fat, i am so hurt, so i eat? I really want to have variety in my diet, and be able to eat what i will enjoy nothing to boring.... I cry when i read menus for EE i can not do that for long cus i gain, or i am starving.. Red days are the only days for me.. ? Has anyone been in this situation ? I heard the more you eat the faster yor matablism works so you lose more? I dont understand this..
I am more inclined to do cambridge all over again, i nearly got to goal with that, i felt so incontrol and never hungry (after first 3 days) BUT i did gain weight when i started eating proply not because of the way the diet is, it was because i just pigged out, because i had levy to do it.... grrr i am so angry and upset...
I so hate myself!! I don't know what to do, how to do it.. i am useless..
I can't even just cut things out, and eat 3 meals a day i have to follow a diet..
Please help me