Daydreambeliever
Full Member
I wish very much to do a course in London-it's a part time thing, and I don't need to worry about any qualifications etc. I can afford it, and am lucky enough to have the time. I called to find out when it is on, and was told Jan. or Oct. next year. So far-so good/clear?!?!
When he told me they were the only 2 months when the course is on, my first thought was:" well I'll have to wait 'til Oct-I'M TOO FAT NOW AND WON'T BE THIN ENOUGH BY JAN" And now my 2nd thought is: "WHAT THE HELL IS WRONG WITH ME" I have put so much off because of my weight-ironically getting fatter and fatter...I need to do this course to move on with my life (it's a stepping stone thing-not hobby based) and yet, as I write this-I have started to cry because the thought of what the other people on the course will think of me, or the fact that my body will 'get in my way'-make it hard to move about or something, is so strong that I don't know what to do!!!:cry:Am I the only one like this? Has anyone words of wisdom or experience they can pass on? And-annoyingly-I now want to eat!!! I won't-but bl***y h**l!!! x
When he told me they were the only 2 months when the course is on, my first thought was:" well I'll have to wait 'til Oct-I'M TOO FAT NOW AND WON'T BE THIN ENOUGH BY JAN" And now my 2nd thought is: "WHAT THE HELL IS WRONG WITH ME" I have put so much off because of my weight-ironically getting fatter and fatter...I need to do this course to move on with my life (it's a stepping stone thing-not hobby based) and yet, as I write this-I have started to cry because the thought of what the other people on the course will think of me, or the fact that my body will 'get in my way'-make it hard to move about or something, is so strong that I don't know what to do!!!:cry:Am I the only one like this? Has anyone words of wisdom or experience they can pass on? And-annoyingly-I now want to eat!!! I won't-but bl***y h**l!!! x