Ajax
Finally...Life begins
:cry:Hi All,
Been totally off the wagon over the last couple of months, thought I could follow the cambridge plan on my own, didnt think my cdc really did anything for me anymore (they are great in retrospect but a but too nice to me if that makes sense!) then my elderly aunt (95yrs) came to stay with us early dec, she became quite ill, diagnosed with cancer, I cared for her and she passed away on the 3rd Jan. Some of you know my history with cancer and loosing my parents, so will understand this dug up a whole heap of emotions and i seem to have gone back into a vicious circle of comfort eating. Weighed myself tonight to find i am heavier now then I have ever been, i have gained loads in the last couple 7, 8 weeks.
I have decided I need the counselling side, big time, but dont know where to turn or what to do next. I am grieving bad, but at the same time trying to keep my strong head on and start getting my weight loss under control. I have so much to look forward to this year, my sister is getting married, Myself and my daughter are bridesmaids. We have a family holiday to egypt planned for july and my very first ever trip to New York being planned now. I know 150% if i am still 19 stone for any one of these events ill be gutted, so i need to get my arse into gear and start loosing again, but as soon as i say, right ill get back onto cambridge my evil subconscious tells me i am gonna fail again, and i end up going round in circles. I think about starting another high st diet - ie weight watchers but know ill be frustrated with the slow loss. VLCD's work very well for me, I am in ketosis within 72 hrs and i get big losses when i stick to it, so I know I can say i need to sort my head out and ill be slim in no time, but how do i go about doing that? Any ideas folks? MY CDC are good but its almost i need a kick up the arse when I am slipping up, instead they are so nice to me I think, oh i can get away with it, and i know i am cheating myself. This time last year I was about 3 stone later, so ive wasted a year being on cd!! SIGH!
Sorry in advance everyone, dont want to bring anyone down, just needed to vent!:cry::cry:
Been totally off the wagon over the last couple of months, thought I could follow the cambridge plan on my own, didnt think my cdc really did anything for me anymore (they are great in retrospect but a but too nice to me if that makes sense!) then my elderly aunt (95yrs) came to stay with us early dec, she became quite ill, diagnosed with cancer, I cared for her and she passed away on the 3rd Jan. Some of you know my history with cancer and loosing my parents, so will understand this dug up a whole heap of emotions and i seem to have gone back into a vicious circle of comfort eating. Weighed myself tonight to find i am heavier now then I have ever been, i have gained loads in the last couple 7, 8 weeks.
I have decided I need the counselling side, big time, but dont know where to turn or what to do next. I am grieving bad, but at the same time trying to keep my strong head on and start getting my weight loss under control. I have so much to look forward to this year, my sister is getting married, Myself and my daughter are bridesmaids. We have a family holiday to egypt planned for july and my very first ever trip to New York being planned now. I know 150% if i am still 19 stone for any one of these events ill be gutted, so i need to get my arse into gear and start loosing again, but as soon as i say, right ill get back onto cambridge my evil subconscious tells me i am gonna fail again, and i end up going round in circles. I think about starting another high st diet - ie weight watchers but know ill be frustrated with the slow loss. VLCD's work very well for me, I am in ketosis within 72 hrs and i get big losses when i stick to it, so I know I can say i need to sort my head out and ill be slim in no time, but how do i go about doing that? Any ideas folks? MY CDC are good but its almost i need a kick up the arse when I am slipping up, instead they are so nice to me I think, oh i can get away with it, and i know i am cheating myself. This time last year I was about 3 stone later, so ive wasted a year being on cd!! SIGH!
Sorry in advance everyone, dont want to bring anyone down, just needed to vent!:cry::cry: