Uphillstruggle
Full Member
Hi,
Not sure if anyone will remember me. I started LL in MArch, stuck to it religiously (Never cheated once) and lost 4.5 stone. By June 21st I was 10stone and a steady size 12.
I couldn't strat management straight away because the group wasnt running for a fortnight - in theory I should have probably stayed in foundation because in that two weeks I completely "fell off the wagon" and binged. Various things have happened since then - I seperated from my husband, then through counselling we are trying to make a go o things, I have started full time work again (had been part-time after the birth of my daughter). Basically I din't do management and am now 11stone 9. I am disgusted with myself. I honestly never binged before LL - my diet was just very unhealthy - no veg/salad/fruit etc. Now my tastes have changed (one good thing to come from abstinance) and I am happy to eat veg/fruit and salad but go on these amazingly challenging sugar binges where I probably consume about 5000 cals in a day. This is why the weight has gone back on so quickly.
Every Monday since stopping Foundation, I have gone to LL, bought the packs and promised myself I was back into abstinance, but it is SO difficult. I found foundation easy but now I cannot seem to stick to it. I am on Day 2 today. THe most I have done since June is 7 days. I am very determined, but somehow I suddenly get the urge to binge and it lasts for days. I know it can't be healthy to keep going in and out of ketosis.
None of my clothes fit and I feel DISGUSTINGLY massive (even though I am still 3 stone lighter than I was in March!). I am having to buy size 16 clothes.
I feel disappointed in myself for not doing management and, if I manage to lose the weight again, I will definitely do the Route to Management. However, what concerns me more is that we never really got any "counselling". I hear people talk on here about diarys/crooked thinking etc - we didnt get ANY of this. Neither did we ever have our blood pressures checked up on. Basicaly we went, got weighed and went home. I feel we've really missed out and I am cross. I am also concerned that my whole way of eating seems to be much worse than it ever was before LL - why am I binging like this? I am self-sabbotaging and it terrifies me cos I never want to put the weight back on.
I'm not sure why I'm writingthis - i feels better to get it all out. My mum did LL with me (different group but same leader) and has also regained a stone. We are both trying to get the weight back off, both binging and both feeling like we missed out and are "failing".
Has anyone had similar experiences? Anyone else regained the weight and managed to lose it again?
Also, does anyone know if I could move to another LL counseller and re-do Foundation? Would they know that I had done it elsewhere? I know it is wrong but I have thought of using my married name (I used my maiden name) in order to re-do it as I theoretically still have 3 stone to lose. There is another counsellor near me and we have just moved house.
Thanks,
Not sure if anyone will remember me. I started LL in MArch, stuck to it religiously (Never cheated once) and lost 4.5 stone. By June 21st I was 10stone and a steady size 12.
I couldn't strat management straight away because the group wasnt running for a fortnight - in theory I should have probably stayed in foundation because in that two weeks I completely "fell off the wagon" and binged. Various things have happened since then - I seperated from my husband, then through counselling we are trying to make a go o things, I have started full time work again (had been part-time after the birth of my daughter). Basically I din't do management and am now 11stone 9. I am disgusted with myself. I honestly never binged before LL - my diet was just very unhealthy - no veg/salad/fruit etc. Now my tastes have changed (one good thing to come from abstinance) and I am happy to eat veg/fruit and salad but go on these amazingly challenging sugar binges where I probably consume about 5000 cals in a day. This is why the weight has gone back on so quickly.
Every Monday since stopping Foundation, I have gone to LL, bought the packs and promised myself I was back into abstinance, but it is SO difficult. I found foundation easy but now I cannot seem to stick to it. I am on Day 2 today. THe most I have done since June is 7 days. I am very determined, but somehow I suddenly get the urge to binge and it lasts for days. I know it can't be healthy to keep going in and out of ketosis.
None of my clothes fit and I feel DISGUSTINGLY massive (even though I am still 3 stone lighter than I was in March!). I am having to buy size 16 clothes.
I feel disappointed in myself for not doing management and, if I manage to lose the weight again, I will definitely do the Route to Management. However, what concerns me more is that we never really got any "counselling". I hear people talk on here about diarys/crooked thinking etc - we didnt get ANY of this. Neither did we ever have our blood pressures checked up on. Basicaly we went, got weighed and went home. I feel we've really missed out and I am cross. I am also concerned that my whole way of eating seems to be much worse than it ever was before LL - why am I binging like this? I am self-sabbotaging and it terrifies me cos I never want to put the weight back on.
I'm not sure why I'm writingthis - i feels better to get it all out. My mum did LL with me (different group but same leader) and has also regained a stone. We are both trying to get the weight back off, both binging and both feeling like we missed out and are "failing".
Has anyone had similar experiences? Anyone else regained the weight and managed to lose it again?
Also, does anyone know if I could move to another LL counseller and re-do Foundation? Would they know that I had done it elsewhere? I know it is wrong but I have thought of using my married name (I used my maiden name) in order to re-do it as I theoretically still have 3 stone to lose. There is another counsellor near me and we have just moved house.
Thanks,