Hi everyone I am on week 2 of Sole source and have decided, after reading some very inspiring diary's, to start one for myself. I realised today that I have wasted around 26 years of my life dieting and failing and have decided that this will no longer be the pattern of my life. Too much time has been thrown away refusing to go on nights out because I had nothing to wear. Not joining in games, dances and general fun because I was too fat and too embarassed to. I am totally motivated at the moment and am actually enjoying the sensation of being a little bit empty as it makes me feel lighter and less sluggish. Although I absolutely adore food, it literally kills me everytime I eat giving me constant indigestion, heartburn, painful stomach aches (taking pain killers before and then after I eat!!!!!! crazy) and tiredness all the time and all because the lady loves to overindulge and has believed for a long time that it was making me happy. How wrong I have been! Anyway I love this forum and hope it gets a bit busier soon. I found myself missing some of the regular minimins posters who haven't been on for a while after I read through their diaries. I hope everyone who is on this journey whether at the beginning like me, middle or end finds the stength and love for themselves to complete it and emerge as new happier and contented person. Thats my goal.