Caroline1980
Full Member
Ok, so I thought I'd start my own diary/blog type thing to help me with what is probably one of the biggest challenges I've faced in my life.
For most of my adult life I have been on a diet, striving to get to my perfect weight/size. I was there on a few occasions briefly and I have spent a long, long time trying to get back there. At my biggest I’ve been about 12.5 stone. At my smallest, I got to around 9.5 with WW. Last year I got to 10.5 stone and a size 12 but I still wanted to get back to where I’d been before. Between moving house at the end of last year and Christmas, my weight crept up , but I’m back down to 10.5 thanks to SW and a brief flirtation with the old WW points for a couple of weeks.
There have been a lot of things going over the last few months which have really made me think a lot about my life and what I’ve been trying to achieve. I feel like I’ve spent the last few years of my life trying to be the person I feel I should be rather than the person I really want to be. And that includes my weight. I’ve spent so long trying to get back to where I was without actually stopping to think if that’s where I want to be anymore. Over the last few weeks I’ve come to realise that actually I’m quite happy where I am. I’m not as thin as I once was. My old clothes don’t fit me, but they haven’t done for five years. What does it matter? I’m fairly happy with how I look right now.
All I want and need to do now is maintain it, which is something I’ve never been able to do. I have either been ‘on a diet’ or ‘off a diet’. I have no idea how to eat healthy or how to eat in a way to maintain my weight. As soon as I got to a point where I was happy with my weight, I went straight back to my old eating habits and it all went back on.
So I am now following the SW plan with one aim in mind, to teach myself how to eat in a healthy way that I can maintain for life. So many people say SW is a change of lifestyle, rather than a diet. It is so true and this is how I am now viewing it. I’m not hugely interested in how my weight changes whilst following the plan. If I lose anything, it’s an added bonus. But much more than that I want to let my body get to a point where it’s happy to find a natural weight through eating properly and looking after myself.
Sorry for the long ramble, I have the feeling most of this diary will end up like this. Thanks for making it this far, and I hope you enjoy reading this, although it is more for myself to record my journey.
For most of my adult life I have been on a diet, striving to get to my perfect weight/size. I was there on a few occasions briefly and I have spent a long, long time trying to get back there. At my biggest I’ve been about 12.5 stone. At my smallest, I got to around 9.5 with WW. Last year I got to 10.5 stone and a size 12 but I still wanted to get back to where I’d been before. Between moving house at the end of last year and Christmas, my weight crept up , but I’m back down to 10.5 thanks to SW and a brief flirtation with the old WW points for a couple of weeks.
There have been a lot of things going over the last few months which have really made me think a lot about my life and what I’ve been trying to achieve. I feel like I’ve spent the last few years of my life trying to be the person I feel I should be rather than the person I really want to be. And that includes my weight. I’ve spent so long trying to get back to where I was without actually stopping to think if that’s where I want to be anymore. Over the last few weeks I’ve come to realise that actually I’m quite happy where I am. I’m not as thin as I once was. My old clothes don’t fit me, but they haven’t done for five years. What does it matter? I’m fairly happy with how I look right now.
All I want and need to do now is maintain it, which is something I’ve never been able to do. I have either been ‘on a diet’ or ‘off a diet’. I have no idea how to eat healthy or how to eat in a way to maintain my weight. As soon as I got to a point where I was happy with my weight, I went straight back to my old eating habits and it all went back on.
So I am now following the SW plan with one aim in mind, to teach myself how to eat in a healthy way that I can maintain for life. So many people say SW is a change of lifestyle, rather than a diet. It is so true and this is how I am now viewing it. I’m not hugely interested in how my weight changes whilst following the plan. If I lose anything, it’s an added bonus. But much more than that I want to let my body get to a point where it’s happy to find a natural weight through eating properly and looking after myself.
Sorry for the long ramble, I have the feeling most of this diary will end up like this. Thanks for making it this far, and I hope you enjoy reading this, although it is more for myself to record my journey.
