Want to loose half my body weight...and some more!

[jules1981]

I started SW today to try and loose some weight. I have a LONG lonnnnnnnnng way to go...but have to start somewhere.

In 2011 I was around 13-14 stone since then I have piled on over 10 stone I had a little boy in 2012 then got severer PND with psychosis and ended up in hospital with Littler man for 12 weeks when he was 9 months old, I was put on various anti psychotic drugs including strong antidepressants and anti psychotics, plus mood stabilizers. All of which I cant blame for my weight gain but when I last saw my psychiatrist agreed they didn't help!

I want to be healthy so I can run after my son-who almost 2 1/2, and to wear nice clothes too.

Anyone who wants to help me on my journey would be great-Thank you xxx

 

[holiday-dieter]

Lots of luck on your journey, will subscribe so we can share ideas xx

 

[ladyfelsham]

We're right here with you Jules!

You can do it hun, just use this diary to pour all your feelings out and everyone here will pile in with love and hugs xxx

 

[jules1981]

Thank you both, seems almost overwhelming right now, hence my first goal of 21-might even change that!

xxxx

 

[chezz]

hi jules
there are loads of lovely people on here who will help you and will understand what your going through to sweetheart
good luck on your journey break it down to little goals and it will not feel such a long way off x x x x x

 

[TracyGWill]

Good luck, hon, you can definitely do it! xx

 

[jules1981]

Thank you girls for the boost and for believing in me xxx

 

[Elle15]

Hi Jules, we have a very similar start weight and goal weight! Best of luck - its a long battle but we will get there! x

 

[kers_pink]

Good luck you can do it x

 

[ladyfelsham]

Hi Jules, we have a very similar start weight and goal weight! Best of luck - its a long battle but we will get there! x

Me three!!! I've broken my ticker up into mini goals of about 30 lbs, which makes it feel more doable.

The one thing I've learned over the last four years of trying to lose weight is that the only way to do it is slowly and sensibly. I've tried every diet out there - like most of us - and the only thing that I show any ability to stick to is calorie counting - although I do also like SW.

 

[PrincessSparklePants]

It is doable love, I started a bit heavier than you and as intimiating as it feels now, when you get going and start - it starts to become second nature.

You CAN do it. You WILL do it. And we'll be right here to back you up x

 

[jules1981]

Thank you all for the support guys.

LadyF you are right about it being slow and steady.

Princesssp- thanks i will need the back up

Ellie we do have similar weights and goals

Kers-Thank you

xxxx

 

[jules1981]

I have had a horrible day

social services came round-they were following up a referral from feb-when I was in hospital!!! the lady was lovely and said she will have to speak to her manger but she has no concerns. LO would be a child in need due to my needs, if she was to take it on.

Then my care co-ordinatior came round and I cried and cried

he was saying how I need to put myself first along with Little man (I put myself 3rd after hubby!) and he wasnt getting it when I said I would put Little one first EVERY TIME everything I do is for Little one, thats why I am fighting to get better! But he just kept saying I needed to be just as important as Little one, which I totally disagreed with. Little man comes first, I just dont understand as a parent (he is) how he couldn't understand I would put my child first, he made me feel guilty for loving LO

[FONT=verdana, geneva, lucida, lucida grande, arial, helvetica, sans-serif]At least I dint turn to food for comfort.[/FONT]

Also started a new anxiety tablet this morning, its making me feel so sleepy.

 

[TracyGWill]

I'm sorry to hear you've had a rotten day, hon. I kind of understand what they mean, in that you need to prioritise your own health in order to be the best Mum you can be for your Son, but I also know that your instinct as a parent is to put them first every time. It needs to be a balance, so you make sure you do concentrate enough on your own needs, even if it sometimes feels selfish - but I realise that's much easier said than done! I suffered from PND when I had my daughter, though it was fairly mild by comparison, and also suffered heart failure when she was three months old, so I know how you feel, having to cope with serious health issues whilst being a Mum. Just don't be too hard on yourself if you do sometimes need to put your own needs first. xx

 

[PrincessSparklePants]

I agree with Tracy You have to be in the best condition possible in order to be a brilliant mum - like you already are - for your little one. YOu need to love yourself as well as hubby and little legs - we're here to sound off to anytime hun, keep coming back and ranting, don't let it bottle up and make yourself even more upset.

You're battling against so much - you ARE a strong person and you CAN do this!

 

[jules1981]

Thanks girls for taking the time to reply. i think its so hard to get my head round that i need to look after me too-but i guess i an in a way by doing this. I think it was so hard as it took me ages to bond with little man, hate to say it but... could have drove him back to the hospital and left him there until he was 11 months old until i got the help from the mother and baby unit and now our bond is so strong and i do love him soooooo much now. i always put him first.

Had a good food day wise Just had a curly wurly for my choc fix

 

[PurpleRoses]

Here to subscribe. Welcome to the forums, good luck with sw

 

[jules1981]

Thanks hun xxx

I am still very emotional from yesterdays meeting and have had bad voices today-have rang little mans nursery 3 times to check he is ok, the voices are saying horrible things about little one, its exhausting I think I normally eat more when I have the voices as almost a way of distracting myself, but haven't done this and it is only a short term fix. I have a long road to get better and loose the weight too.

Been to the Drs today, they are keeping my anti depressants, anxiety, mood stabilizing meds and sleeping tablets the same. But they have found out I have an under-active thyroid, so am now on meds for that too-I rattle when I walk! lol!

xxx

 

[S_J_B]

Sorry to hear you've been having such a tough time but lots of things to be positive about & sounds like you're taking charge of the future. Good luck & you can do it

The thyroid meds should make it easier to lose weight so worth the rattle!

 

[jules1981]

Thanks SJB, I like that `taking charge of the future` Yep hopefully the tablets might help with the weigh loss. xxx