Caz
Repeat Offender
Well my day has been mad, rather up and down. I woke up this morning feeling crap about myself. Then I went to go get dressed and couldn't really find anything that I liked and that still fits. And I thought I'd try on one of my tops which I bought in a size 18 from Primark a little while ago. I bought a few bits in a size 18 when I was in there as I guess I set it as a kind of mini goal.
Anyway, I figured that I'd try it on to see how far away I am from it but it fit! Fit perfectly! Another 18 from there fit but maybe slightly tight so not quite 18 on top yet. But that made me feel pretty good!
Then I was going out with my parents and one of my sisters this afternoon, just got home. But anyway, while out my mum decided she was hungry so they decided to go to the chip shop. They drove over to this amazing chip shop which is a fair distance away because they do these chips in a coating. I'd already decided that I wasn't going to eat any, no matter what. But we got there and it was closed, I couldn't help but smile smugly! Though we came to near home and they got chips and we went and sat by the river. So if it wasn't bad enough having to sit there while they ate chips which looked and smelt so good, they then got an ice cream from the ice cream van afterwards!! And to make it all worse, I'd got a bar out and meant to take it with me but forgot it, so I was starving! Only had half a shake so far today.
Have realised that I can't make my appointment with my CDC on thursday morning as I won't be back from London but she can't see me before hand so had an issue there. But have decided that as I have 4 packs a day anyway there's very little difference between that and SS+ for me.
I'm just exhausted now!! But soon I'm going over to my sisters where there'll no doubt be more temptation. While I'm proud of resisting I still feel kinda... blah. But never mind! Onwards and upwards, I'll snap myself out of it. Just glad I don't have to feel bad about eating chips and ice cream too!
Anyway, I figured that I'd try it on to see how far away I am from it but it fit! Fit perfectly! Another 18 from there fit but maybe slightly tight so not quite 18 on top yet. But that made me feel pretty good!
Then I was going out with my parents and one of my sisters this afternoon, just got home. But anyway, while out my mum decided she was hungry so they decided to go to the chip shop. They drove over to this amazing chip shop which is a fair distance away because they do these chips in a coating. I'd already decided that I wasn't going to eat any, no matter what. But we got there and it was closed, I couldn't help but smile smugly! Though we came to near home and they got chips and we went and sat by the river. So if it wasn't bad enough having to sit there while they ate chips which looked and smelt so good, they then got an ice cream from the ice cream van afterwards!! And to make it all worse, I'd got a bar out and meant to take it with me but forgot it, so I was starving! Only had half a shake so far today.
Have realised that I can't make my appointment with my CDC on thursday morning as I won't be back from London but she can't see me before hand so had an issue there. But have decided that as I have 4 packs a day anyway there's very little difference between that and SS+ for me.
I'm just exhausted now!! But soon I'm going over to my sisters where there'll no doubt be more temptation. While I'm proud of resisting I still feel kinda... blah. But never mind! Onwards and upwards, I'll snap myself out of it. Just glad I don't have to feel bad about eating chips and ice cream too!
) when I'm alone. Haven't given in yet....fingers crossed.
