Diary of a desperate girl...

[traveljody]

Well done on going to the gym, I'm not religious but I am happy to concede that Sunday should be a day of rest! Do you any particular work out? I am thinking about joining one locally, it's £20 per month and very basic but open 24 hours and would be idea for a quick 40 minute burst a few times a week, can't decide

 

[Saruk88]

Haha I have too many days of rest for Sunday to be a designated one! No particular work out that I follow, but I tend to do cross trainer, bike or rowing machine, or a combination of 2/all of them and then from 2-5 different kind of weight machines. And sometimes I add swimming to the mix, too. But as I get better I'd like to try out different stuff.

I'm so glad I joined the gym, I generally feel so good after I go and for me it's totally worth the money. I have real problems with my shins and calves which means power walking and running are just out of the question. I tried to do that couch to 5k app a few months ago but it totally screwed my legs up. So, the gym and good old swimming are just a perfect alternative.

I've had such a 'hungry' day today, which is funny when yesterday I wasn't hungry at all and all I had before the curry at dinner was scrambled egg on 1.5 slices of toast at brekkie! But despite my hunger pains I managed to keep to (roughly) a reasonable 1300 cals minus those lost at the gym. So I feel okay and ready to tackle the next working week!

... Bleurghhhhhhh.

 

[Saruk88]

Ahhhh, relatively good day today! Probably had about 1300/1400 calories ... so not great but relatively okay.

I have, however, been aching so much from the gym and also, I think, because I have absolutely massive boobs. Like seriously big. And my back is just killing me. I went to the docs about it a few years ago and he said 'join a gym and build up your back muscle' ... Like that was going to sort it out. I'd have to have back muscles like the hulk. Sooo, I've decided once I get down to about 9/9 and a half stone, I'm going to make the appointment with the surgeon. I sort of subconsciously saved for it when I was younger so I have the money to just go for it, and although I'm pretty sure I could get it on the NHS, I just can't bring myself to make a sob story out of it and cry my eyes out to the doctor.

Now that's something for me to work towards!

 

[Saruk88]

Oh, guys. I'm not feeling his today. I went on the scales this morning and I haven't lost anything and it's just getting to me. I'm trying to do it sensibly and not starve myself so I've been having between 1200-1500 calories, plus going to the gym. I could def up the number of times I go to the gym but I didn't want to get to a place where I resented going.

I think I'm going to allow myself a little mope today and get back on it tomorrow.

 

[traveljody]

Hey hun, sorry to hear it's one of those days. It sounds like you are doing the right things! Do you track on MFP or similar? Just wondered if perhaps your carbs were really high even though your calories were low? That was my biggest issue, I thought I was being good but my carbs were through the roof. Hope you feel better tomorrow after a good sleep, proper weigh in isn't until friday after all

 

[Saruk88]

Ahh chick, thanks for getting me to download MFP! I had my breakfast this morning (bran flakes and a banana with semi skinned milk), downloaded the app and entered all my details and my breakfast ... And I had already gone over my daily sugar allowance! Haha by 8.30am I had had too much sugar! Oh how I laughed. So with the fruit that I had taken in for my lunch, I have over doubled my sugar intake! Meh! But, I've decided not to worry about the sugar, so long as I'm not having bad sugar. But I will pay attention to carbs, fat and calories.

So, today I have 177 calories left, 21g of carbs and 10g fat left of the day but I'm not going to have anymore ... Although saying that I remember I forgot to put in a (very naughty) glass of wine that I had after work with my girlfriends and a splash of lemonade. Oh, and some ketchup. So I'm probably about 177 cals over, haha.

I feel much better today. Didn't go to the gym cos mike was going with his mates so instead I set up a wii fit account and did that, which has made me happy cos on those days that I don't have the time or enthusiasm for the gym, I can do wii fit. And if I'm out in the evenings a lot (which I frequently am) I can get up in the morning and do the wii. Eeee.

I noticed the calories I'm allowed today went up - is that cos I did exercise? And did it affect how many carbs/sugars etc I could have? I think it did but not 100% sure.

thanks again jody (I'm guessing that's your name!) for recommending MFP, it definitely helps.

 

[traveljody]

Yep, that's my name! Don't know why my mum had to spell it wrong though? It's soooo easy to not realise exactly what's in your food which is why I wondered how you were counting. Yep, if you add in the exercise you have completed it adjusts your calories, carbs and fat etc to give you some breathing space (As I call it!). It also aligns them based on your goals. I don't use it as the be all and end all but it gives you a good idea, the app is great, rather than search for foods you can scan the barcode! It works for most products but occasionally I find it comes up as something else in the range lol.

I personally think carbs and sugar are my problem so it's always worth keeping an eye on what you are getting in and if you aren't losing then I guess you could start eating those bits again and try cutting the fats instead? Sure you get what I mean!

Well done on the Wii Fit too, I have/had one, not sure what happened to it

 

[traveljody]

Also meant to add, if you look to the left of this post in my info bit you should see the MFP symbol, I added my username so I think it takes you to my profile if you wanted to see what I was eating, it might give you some ideas!

 

[Saruk88]

Haha, I like it with a y.

Okay, that's good about it changing it. I've decided not to worry too much about the sugar cos with diets like weight watchers, fruit is 'free' so you can have as much as you like, so the sugars in it can't be that bad.


Yeah ill definitely try and keep using it. Before I was just counting in my head the rough calories I was having and then adding on about 200 cals for good measure haha. I think this is a better way!


Ahhh, thanks - i just clicked it but it said we need to be friends and I didn't want to just request you as a friend and put you in an awkward situation, haha! So you can add me if you like ...saruk88 I think it is. I'll leave it in your hands!

 

[traveljody]

I don't mind at all! I just tried to find you on there and am getting a message saying the community is down for maintenance, gah, will try again in a bit!

 

[Saruk88]

Well we're friends but I can't see you food diary! Haha. Still gone over my sugar again today but only from grapes and bran flakes so I won't worry about it.

Been good today - got nearly 600 calories left for dinner and I'll do either gym, swimming or the wii fit. So unless I go completely wild I don't think I'll hit my calories today, which will make up for going a little over yesterday!

Im also a little concerned I might have a bad few days ahead of me... There is going to be a LOT of cake, choc, biscuits etc tomorrow as its my boss' 30th,we'll definitely be going to the pub at lunch and then after work I'm going to my friend's for a girly evening. I'll just have to ignore the bad food (I have been doing this all week as she has a "birthday week" which means cake has been in front of me every day), stick to just having a diet coke only at the pub and warn my friend not to get in girly night treats! Ahhh, this is so hard.

and then Saturday its my boss's bday party so going out for a meal and then lots of cocktails in a cocktail bar, and then Sunday I'm probably going to be a little hungover and I'm going up to London to see my brother ... Which will involve eating out and having plenty of hangover food, as well as potentially some hair of the dog drinks. Arghhhh. Socialising = CALORIES. but this is what life is all about and I don't want to scrimp on my social life ... So bring it! I just need to make better decisions when out and about. On Saturday I'll also try and burn plenty of calories before I head out.

Weigh in tomorrow morning ... I really hope I haven't stayed the same ...

 

[traveljody]

Ooooh I need a 'birthday week' lol! I changed my diary settings so friends can see it now, hope that helps

It must be really difficult when you are out, choices can be really restricted and it seems so easy to give in when you are in a social setting and everyone else is going for it. My dept all went out for lunch last Friday with our old manager who retired in April and I decline eventually, knowing I would struggle to pick anything that remotely fit my diet, it helped that I had my podiatrist appointment as I could use that as an excuse! I hope dinner and exercise went well, it's so blinking hot tonight, a swim sounds just lovely

 

[Saruk88]

Just got back from the gym, had a really good work out. Entered it on my fitness pal and he said I burned 400 calories and promptly told me off for having eaten too few calories. Little does he know what's coming up in the next few days! Haha.

I tried to put in what weight machines I did and spent ages trying to figure out what machine was called what ... Not to much avail! Oh well. I know they're about making your muscles stronger but surely I burned some calories doing them?! I did 5 separate machines, 30 reps each ... You would have though 150 weight lifts down I'd have burned something! Haha. Never mind.

One thing I'm worried about is in the evenings I seem to get heartburn really regularly. I googled it earlier and they said it can be caused by being overweight and/or exercise, and it has definitely sprung up since I upped the ante on the exercise, I'm just worried that its happening too often? It seems to be nearly every day ... :-/ I might make a log of when I get it so that I can keep track. Does anyone know any particularly good remedies?

 

[Saruk88]

Ooooh I need a 'birthday week' lol! I changed my diary settings so friends can see it now, hope that helps

It must be really difficult when you are out, choices can be really restricted and it seems so easy to give in when you are in a social setting and everyone else is going for it. My dept all went out for lunch last Friday with our old manager who retired in April and I decline eventually, knowing I would struggle to pick anything that remotely fit my diet, it helped that I had my podiatrist appointment as I could use that as an excuse! I hope dinner and exercise went well, it's so blinking hot tonight, a swim sounds just lovely

Ah, fab - thanks! I'll check it out now.

Yeah ... I tend to go for what I want (within reason) and be extra good around it .... It's too hard otherwise. I'm never one for puddings (definitely a starter girl) so I'm not the worst eat-outer (that's a word, right?), it's just that you have no idea what they've put n what! Bet it's bloody hard to enter in MFP too!

Yeah I was looking longingly at the pool! Our flat is like a greenhouse but for some reason after exercise I get chilly! Weird.

 

[Saruk88]

Sooo, I've lost a pound and a half! My body really isnt up for this weightloss malarkey! But at least it's in the right direction. Which is good. And I haven't put on 6lbs or however much it was ... Which is also good!

I missed a pill this week though so my body started to think it was time of the month, and cos I skipped past my last one I usually get a worse one the month after. So it could be partly down to that. We'll see!

 

[traveljody]

Yay! 1.5lbs is really good hun and a step in the right direction. Especially after last week with the scales! I think you should be super chuffed with that :hug99:

I know most people use Gavison for heartburn when it's bad, I only get it very occasionally so just have a few sips of milk to help, hope it gets better soon!

 

[Saruk88]

Haha ahh, bless you chick. Thank you so much.

Yeah actually my mum uses Gaviscon. Might get some tomorrow - thanks!

So today I did give in to treats but I was very restrictive and only had a diet coke at the pub ...and (I don't know if this is a good thing) I think my stomach has completely rejected it as I've had such an upset tummy ...again! What is wrong with me? I go all through my life absolutely fine, start eating well and BOOM! Heartburn and dodgy tum! So I've had to reschedule my night with my mate but she's been absolutely lovely about it, and although I didn't bother with MFP today (as I would have been so hard to do homemade stuff!) my calories won't be too bad. I might put some of it in actually just to see what figure I come out with.

Tomorrow I'm going to walk up to town with mike and go shopping (which always involves lots of walking!) and then either have a session at the gym or the wii so that I have some extra room for a bit of alcohol and a meal out tomorrow. Then, depending on the state of my head, I'll do a wii session before I go to London on Sunday, I'll walk to and from the station and do plenty of walking during the day. So maybe it won't all be doom and gloom.

ps it's FRIDAAAAYYYYYYYY!

 

[Saruk88]

Ahh, so this weekend has been bad ...very bad. Friday was pretty poor and yesterday, although I didn't eat particularly badly, the cocktails ... Oh my god the cocktails. Extremely yummy but added like 1000 calories to my day! I did do the wii for an hour but it didn't make a lot of difference in the grand scheme of things!

Today though, I've managed to ignore my greasy-food hangover cravings ... Had toast this morning and then went out for a late lunch at this amazing, quirky curry house in London ... I had a dry dish tho so no extra calories from the sauce and I won't be having anything later, or if I do it'll be really small. And I did a lot of walking - went all round London and walked everywhere.

Now this week I'm going to work really hard and LOSE!

 

[traveljody]

Hope your tum feels better now, do you think it was the diet coke that set it off? You did say it would be an incredibly hard weekend and I think you've done really well to do all the exercise as well, I know I tend to think once it's all gone pete tong that I might as well make the most of it . I haven't had a good cocktail for ages and I do like mine sweet so maybe I need to stay away from them?! I really want to do the whole London tourist thing, I go through it quite often as I have to travel to an office I manage up there but I literally go and come home, we keep saying we will do it but we haven't yet.

Sounds like you are raring to go this week, let's keep fingers, legs, eyes and toes crossed

 

[Saruk88]

It's much better now thanks. I don't think it was the diet coke, I didn't have very much and I used to have it every day! I think it was a mix of things and I had some ibuprofen earlier in the day which apparently is really bad for an upset stomach.

i like them sweet too! I was having elderflower mojitos and they're just to die for.

Yeah I really love London and I was saying to my brother today that I really don't take advantage of the fact it's so close. I'm definitely going to go more often, especially when I'm skinny and can really enjoy the shops there! Haha. It's mike's birthday next month so I've booked us a hotel there and a show and stuff. I'm really excited haha.