LeaV
Full Member
Hi everyone 
Well here I am, waking up to day 4 and decided to start a diary to hopefully keep me busy and keep others motivated if WHEN I do well
I got weighed on Tuesday and was a grand total of 15 stones 9. The biggest I've ever been is 15 stone 12 and the smallest I for down to (using weightwatchers) was 13stone1. After every diet I've ever done I've gained it all back and more. I've done this diet before and for quick and pretty fab results. My shape, weight and personality changed within a few weeks....I was so happy!!! THEN silly old me went to GLastonbury festival for a week, for very drunk and tried all the gorgeous food then really struggled to get back on it after that. It's taken 2 years, but I've gained the weight back. From 13stone 5....right back up. I've tried other diets since and have lost a pound here and a pound rhere but then gained 3 pounds here and 4 lbs there!!!
This year I will be 30....and when I was a teenager I promised myself I wouldn't be fat at 20.....in my 20s I've promised myself I won't be fat and 30....so here goes.
Sometimes I get really upset at what I've done to myself.....sometimes I just feel disgust. But refuse to do that any more, am just looking to the future.
I'm getting married next may to a man who has loved me through all my weird and wonderful diets....who has known me at my smallest, and adored me at my biggest. I want to stand next to him on our wedding day and love myself as much as he loves me....so here I am.
I know I can lose the weight....I'm just terrified at putting it back on again...again!
I have a lot to lose.....I'd love to be 11 st 7 but for now I'm aiming to be 12stone13. I haven't been UNDER 13 stones since I was 12 (17 years ago) and I know I'll cry when I reach it as I don't even remember seeing that number on the scales.
My boyf is very supportive, as are my 4 best mates....so far I haven't had to tell anybody else. That's the part I struggle with, I hate the judgemental looks and the ''eeh you should just eat less and exercise more'' ok luv, u come back to me when ur almost 16 stone and losing all your confidence and zest for life. I know I could do it slowly and lose a few stones for the wedding, but I want ME back NOW, I don't want to waste another year and then in 9 years time saying....I don't want to be fat and 40.
THIS IS IT it's now or never! Last time here I go!!!!
I'm on day 4 so hoping things are looking up. I've been on a MOVA course this week so it's been quite physical and I'm feeling groggy. I have started on SS and this really works for me, to take food out of the equation altogether as I k ow I can't have ANY, rather than "ooh I'll have this but them eat less tomorrow" which I never did!
On day one I had my 3 shakes and a polo (felt v guilty but MOVA means gettin very up close and personal to strangers and I felt rank)
Day 2 I had my shakes and a mint!! (same excuse)
Day 3 yesterday I was bought a ham sandwich from a girl on the course who didn't know I was on the diet. THANK THE LORD the sarnie was stale and so I just ate the ham which I know doesn't harm kerosis. Luckily when I looked at the sandwich I had no desire for it at all, maybe I overestimated how stale it was cos quite frankly it looked disgusting to me and I really didn't want to eat it!!!
Anyways enough rabbiting on from me.
This diary is for myself and all of u lot who maybe in time I will inspire as reading other stories has Inspired me.
If you do drop by, please say hi and share your stories/weight losses....we all need a little help every now and again have a good day and I'll see less of you all tomorrow xx
Well here I am, waking up to day 4 and decided to start a diary to hopefully keep me busy and keep others motivated if WHEN I do well
I got weighed on Tuesday and was a grand total of 15 stones 9. The biggest I've ever been is 15 stone 12 and the smallest I for down to (using weightwatchers) was 13stone1. After every diet I've ever done I've gained it all back and more. I've done this diet before and for quick and pretty fab results. My shape, weight and personality changed within a few weeks....I was so happy!!! THEN silly old me went to GLastonbury festival for a week, for very drunk and tried all the gorgeous food then really struggled to get back on it after that. It's taken 2 years, but I've gained the weight back. From 13stone 5....right back up. I've tried other diets since and have lost a pound here and a pound rhere but then gained 3 pounds here and 4 lbs there!!!
This year I will be 30....and when I was a teenager I promised myself I wouldn't be fat at 20.....in my 20s I've promised myself I won't be fat and 30....so here goes.
Sometimes I get really upset at what I've done to myself.....sometimes I just feel disgust. But refuse to do that any more, am just looking to the future.
I'm getting married next may to a man who has loved me through all my weird and wonderful diets....who has known me at my smallest, and adored me at my biggest. I want to stand next to him on our wedding day and love myself as much as he loves me....so here I am.
I know I can lose the weight....I'm just terrified at putting it back on again...again!
I have a lot to lose.....I'd love to be 11 st 7 but for now I'm aiming to be 12stone13. I haven't been UNDER 13 stones since I was 12 (17 years ago) and I know I'll cry when I reach it as I don't even remember seeing that number on the scales.
My boyf is very supportive, as are my 4 best mates....so far I haven't had to tell anybody else. That's the part I struggle with, I hate the judgemental looks and the ''eeh you should just eat less and exercise more'' ok luv, u come back to me when ur almost 16 stone and losing all your confidence and zest for life. I know I could do it slowly and lose a few stones for the wedding, but I want ME back NOW, I don't want to waste another year and then in 9 years time saying....I don't want to be fat and 40.
THIS IS IT it's now or never! Last time here I go!!!!
I'm on day 4 so hoping things are looking up. I've been on a MOVA course this week so it's been quite physical and I'm feeling groggy. I have started on SS and this really works for me, to take food out of the equation altogether as I k ow I can't have ANY, rather than "ooh I'll have this but them eat less tomorrow" which I never did!
On day one I had my 3 shakes and a polo (felt v guilty but MOVA means gettin very up close and personal to strangers and I felt rank)
Day 2 I had my shakes and a mint!! (same excuse)
Day 3 yesterday I was bought a ham sandwich from a girl on the course who didn't know I was on the diet. THANK THE LORD the sarnie was stale and so I just ate the ham which I know doesn't harm kerosis. Luckily when I looked at the sandwich I had no desire for it at all, maybe I overestimated how stale it was cos quite frankly it looked disgusting to me and I really didn't want to eat it!!!
Anyways enough rabbiting on from me.
This diary is for myself and all of u lot who maybe in time I will inspire as reading other stories has Inspired me.
If you do drop by, please say hi and share your stories/weight losses....we all need a little help every now and again
have a good day and I'll see less of you all tomorrow xx
