shazzlesmcshazz
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I want to start a diary - I *need* to start a diary - to keep me on the straight and narrow. I have just eaten four KitKats. In. A. Row. My willpower has been squashed today. Tomorrow is another day - a new dawn, if I'm to be dramatic. I'm not overweight per se but I'm, what a gym instructor calls, a "skinny fat person". I wear a size 12 but my body is a saggy, flabby mess. I have a 14-month-old daughter and, while I've lost the "baby weight", everything is less elastic than it should be. I've got chunks of fat under my arms, muffin top and a roll of fat on my belly that forms the telltale "W" shape of motherhood. This is all new. My fat bum and thighs are not new. They have been on the scene since 2001. Maybe 1997. Possibly 1985, I was a chunky baby. I haven't worn shorts for 13 years. Same goes for short skirts and dresses. I spent my teens and twenties ashamed of my body. I'm going to be 30 this year and I'm not spending the rest of my life hiding in maxi dresses and capri pants.
So I'm going to lose weight. And tone up. And I'm going to document it all - food diary, weight updates and photos of meals and binges (are new members allowed??). I doubt anyone will read this, it's just for me. Hopefully having to share everything will keep me strong.....
Off to bed. Roll on tomorrow.
So I'm going to lose weight. And tone up. And I'm going to document it all - food diary, weight updates and photos of meals and binges (are new members allowed??). I doubt anyone will read this, it's just for me. Hopefully having to share everything will keep me strong.....
Off to bed. Roll on tomorrow.