Sez
has started again!!
What happened?
Came home from grocery shopping.
Unpacked shopping in kitchen, fridge stuff piled up ready to go in!
Saw healthy eating ham had bought, and Dutch cheese slices.
Ate them.
What were my hot thoughts?
1)The ham is ok, it wont take me of ketosis and anyway, no-one can see me do this.
2)I am sick of this bloody diet.
3)I never see a diet right through anyway.
4)I am so hungry, what would it hurt?
5)I have eaten the ham now so I guess the cheese wont make any difference?
6)Well, completely messed up today now so I fancy those biscuits, and again I can do this in secret.
7)And finally, I have made these pizzas in an attempt to make some healthy food for the family. I have eaten already today so I dont care if I eat again.
8)I feel miserable that I left myself down, again, earlier today.
9)Does anyone really care if I eat or not?
They just want to be able to control me, it seems.
Evidence against hot thought/more realistic thoughts
1) I dont know if it will or not, but I do know it is not allowed to break abstinence on the LL programme.
2)Yes, you are probably bored right now, but you were in much less happy place a few months ago. This diet did this for you.
3)Not in the past, but does this mean not ever?
4)See 1 above. It would hurt as it is not allowed.
5)Yes, you did eat the ham but is it really worth compounding your mistake and making it bigger?
6)see above
7)You made those pizzas for the family and not for you, at this point in time. Great attempt at making healthy meals, which you might be able to eat in a few short months, but NOT NOW.
8)(not sure on this one??)
9)My family are really really proud of me and have supported me all the way so far. They love me and want the best for me after seeing me suffer with the fat for so many years.
How I feel now
Less guilty. More positive. Ready to carry on.
How I might behave now
If I come in and feel the need to eat I will, if appropriate have a foodpack before I do any thing else.
I will try to focus on my short term goals and ambition, as well as looking at the bigger picture.
I will drink water and see if it helps. Sparkling with flavours is always good.
I am not sure if this is how these should be written, but I have tried to follow the advice given by Mrs L in her TR post. I have never publicised my thought records before and would value feedback/comments etc.
Thanks for taking the time to read this rather verbose post, too!
Came home from grocery shopping.
Unpacked shopping in kitchen, fridge stuff piled up ready to go in!
Saw healthy eating ham had bought, and Dutch cheese slices.
Ate them.
What were my hot thoughts?
1)The ham is ok, it wont take me of ketosis and anyway, no-one can see me do this.
2)I am sick of this bloody diet.
3)I never see a diet right through anyway.
4)I am so hungry, what would it hurt?
5)I have eaten the ham now so I guess the cheese wont make any difference?
6)Well, completely messed up today now so I fancy those biscuits, and again I can do this in secret.
7)And finally, I have made these pizzas in an attempt to make some healthy food for the family. I have eaten already today so I dont care if I eat again.
8)I feel miserable that I left myself down, again, earlier today.
9)Does anyone really care if I eat or not?
They just want to be able to control me, it seems.
Evidence against hot thought/more realistic thoughts
1) I dont know if it will or not, but I do know it is not allowed to break abstinence on the LL programme.
2)Yes, you are probably bored right now, but you were in much less happy place a few months ago. This diet did this for you.
3)Not in the past, but does this mean not ever?
4)See 1 above. It would hurt as it is not allowed.
5)Yes, you did eat the ham but is it really worth compounding your mistake and making it bigger?
6)see above
7)You made those pizzas for the family and not for you, at this point in time. Great attempt at making healthy meals, which you might be able to eat in a few short months, but NOT NOW.
8)(not sure on this one??)
9)My family are really really proud of me and have supported me all the way so far. They love me and want the best for me after seeing me suffer with the fat for so many years.
How I feel now
Less guilty. More positive. Ready to carry on.
How I might behave now
If I come in and feel the need to eat I will, if appropriate have a foodpack before I do any thing else.
I will try to focus on my short term goals and ambition, as well as looking at the bigger picture.
I will drink water and see if it helps. Sparkling with flavours is always good.
I am not sure if this is how these should be written, but I have tried to follow the advice given by Mrs L in her TR post. I have never publicised my thought records before and would value feedback/comments etc.
Thanks for taking the time to read this rather verbose post, too!