Jojobear
Full Member
Does anyone else suffer with a mild or strong case of alcoholism? I tend to drink quite a bit and my brother tells me "you are fat because you drink "
I think " I drink because I am fat"
My dad was an alcoholic but I didnt meet him until I was 9. My mother was pregnant on me when she kicked him out and I thank her to this day for it because my best friends parents are both alco's and I see how it affected her life and her siblings.
I drink at the weekend but I binge drink , I mostly drink bulmers/magners and when they are gone i will drink anything. I have gone to therapists and all they do is make me cry. they bring up my dad.. who i never knew and wants to be in contact , my mams boyfriend of 12 years who died of cancer that cheated on my mother , I adored the ground he walked on.
My relationship with food is basically greed.. I dont feel hungry but I want it.
Same when I was thin , I wanted , Dior , Chanel .. anything that made me feel pretty , I had a good job , very good wages , brains to burn and now...
I am unemployed , fat and lonely. My last boyfriend lasted 6 months.. we drank one night and I made pasta loaded with cheese and he said "thats not going to do you any good" and "someone has to tell you" I dumped him the next day.. I was skinny and I was beautiful I refuse to be treated this way just because I gained weight. (by the way I gained weight from 1st and 2nd degree burns on my legs due to a hot water bottle bursting on my thighs.. followed by depression and anxiety as I had lost a job I loved 3 weeks before due to the recession in 2009)
I doubt anyone will relate but I am pissed off , and venting and isnt that what this site is for.
ps. I chopped my baby finger off when i was 3
I miscarried due to blood not matching with my boyfriend of five years who i loved
I lost my career
Whats left?
I think " I drink because I am fat"
My dad was an alcoholic but I didnt meet him until I was 9. My mother was pregnant on me when she kicked him out and I thank her to this day for it because my best friends parents are both alco's and I see how it affected her life and her siblings.
I drink at the weekend but I binge drink , I mostly drink bulmers/magners and when they are gone i will drink anything. I have gone to therapists and all they do is make me cry. they bring up my dad.. who i never knew and wants to be in contact , my mams boyfriend of 12 years who died of cancer that cheated on my mother , I adored the ground he walked on.
My relationship with food is basically greed.. I dont feel hungry but I want it.
Same when I was thin , I wanted , Dior , Chanel .. anything that made me feel pretty , I had a good job , very good wages , brains to burn and now...
I am unemployed , fat and lonely. My last boyfriend lasted 6 months.. we drank one night and I made pasta loaded with cheese and he said "thats not going to do you any good" and "someone has to tell you" I dumped him the next day.. I was skinny and I was beautiful I refuse to be treated this way just because I gained weight. (by the way I gained weight from 1st and 2nd degree burns on my legs due to a hot water bottle bursting on my thighs.. followed by depression and anxiety as I had lost a job I loved 3 weeks before due to the recession in 2009)
I doubt anyone will relate but I am pissed off , and venting and isnt that what this site is for.
ps. I chopped my baby finger off when i was 3
I miscarried due to blood not matching with my boyfriend of five years who i loved
I lost my career
Whats left?
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