i haven't had to search out my diary for a while... where's everyone gone? ha.
well today i have been watching tru calling, someone lent me it. it's a bit naff but fun
am enjoying it. shame it got cancelled really. have been watching dollhouse recently too so have been getting a glut of miss dushku...
nothing much else to report. am getting desperate to eat. it's pitiful really. i'm not feeling as generally enraged as before. but i'm not feeling happy either. i can't wait to be bloody thin!!
also watched catch up on itv player of the biggest loser. made me feel really quite thin. i remember watching those and being heavier than some of the contestants... not any more. so that felt quite good
but it also made me slightly angry. some of the reasons people give on there for losing weight. to remain alive for their children, to conceive babies. and then they moan and whine when they have such an opportunity. i don't really agree with the biggest loser. i don't think tempting people with failure is going to help them in the long run. but i think having one of the best trainers in the country at your disposal, well i'd hope i'd want to make the best of it. and i'd moan and scream too. but i'd like to think i'd give it my best while doing so, not saying things like 'i don't give a crap' etc etc... but maybe that's my current bad mood talking, ha.
am going to go and pamper myself in the bath, am going to stick in one of my lush lavender things to knock me out a bit before going to bed
night night guys
abz xx