Hey CDC's sorry to be a pain, but I was wondering if you had any advice for someone like me who has sarted binge eating all of a sudden after being so good on the diet for 6 months , and now I am struggling to get back on!:argh: I have binged for about 2 weeks andd put on about a stone! I dont want to go back to my old ways, but I feel out of control!!:cry::needhug:
Hia Sunny,
This is the six million dollar question. A couple of years ago I lost 100lb with LL (similar to CD), and became slim for the first time. Why did I chuck it all away and put on most of the weight again (about five stone)? Why did I wait so long before facing what I was doing and stopping?
I know exactly where you are just now. It is a horrible, scary, frustrating and distressing place to be and I offer you :hug99: a virtual hug.
Firstly, huge congratulations on staying on CD for six whole months :happy096:. That in itself and is a great achievment and you should feel proud of yourself.
How do you feel about returning to CD again? Can you even face the possibility of returning to it? Can you take a few minutes to sit down with a pencil and paper and write down thoughts and feelings you have been bingeing to avoid these past two weeks? What is stopping you from stopping?
I am asking these questions because I know that when I want to eat, I switch off to any thoughts of stopping, or questioning what I am doing. It's like putting your fingers in your ears and shouting "no,no I can't hear you" with your eyes closed! That's because I want the feelings I get from eating, and I want them NOW, and nothing will stop me getting them.
The
hardest thing is to
resist the impulse to binge, or eat emotionally. It isn't physically painful, but leaves me feeling emotionally bereft, alone, anxious, angry, etc.
OK Sunny, the next time you want to binge, can you take the time to write down how it makes YOU feel to resist. Explore those feelings. Identify them.
Please be kind to yourself, you've come a long way, you have achieved a lot, and your weightloss journey will be filled with problems, pitfalls, and other snags which will try to catch you unaware.
I am on CD at the moment, and I am enjoying being back on meal supplements. They take me away from the insanity of food and eating. Give me a breathing space while I try to find ways to learn hard lessons about emotional eating.
Hope you have a good Saturday,
AJ