bigmuthabluffa
Full Member
Hi all I just wanted to write a little post that will hopefully help some of you.
This Friday will be WI6, and it has been hell getting to this point however I am still here without cheating once and feeling better than ever.
At the end of wk5 I honestly thought I could not go on, and remembering I made a signed promise to hubby, it was tearing me apart. I was actually in PAIN, needing a hit like a true addict, but i knew the food I wanted wasn't good for me and I was sobbing like a baby.:cry:
My hubby sat me down and said if I felt like I had finished my journey on TFR then I should come off. Then he asked if you refeed now how will you feel. Immediately, I felt FAILURE, I said this to him and he said if you already feel failure at just the thought of stopping than you need to carry on. He was right and I knew it, I got through that night with lots of crying and anger and guilt and I don't know how many other emotions. And Sunday morning I woke up, without the weight of the world on my shoulders. I guess you could say I had a breakthrough moment
I want you all to know that when you think you can't do any more before you have gotten to your goal, you are wrong, you can get through, cry, go to the top of a hill and scream, do whatever you need to release those feeling ( so long as it is legal and not harmful to others )
And just ride it out, I have not had one bad moment this week, and I am amazed. I am not saying I won't, but I know how to deal with them now.
The end of April is my goal and I can see me getting there now. I have got to the top of my mountain and am now taking the long climb down, but that is the best bit because you have a great view all the way down
Have a good day everyone.
Anna x
This Friday will be WI6, and it has been hell getting to this point however I am still here without cheating once and feeling better than ever.
At the end of wk5 I honestly thought I could not go on, and remembering I made a signed promise to hubby, it was tearing me apart. I was actually in PAIN, needing a hit like a true addict, but i knew the food I wanted wasn't good for me and I was sobbing like a baby.:cry:
My hubby sat me down and said if I felt like I had finished my journey on TFR then I should come off. Then he asked if you refeed now how will you feel. Immediately, I felt FAILURE, I said this to him and he said if you already feel failure at just the thought of stopping than you need to carry on. He was right and I knew it, I got through that night with lots of crying and anger and guilt and I don't know how many other emotions. And Sunday morning I woke up, without the weight of the world on my shoulders. I guess you could say I had a breakthrough moment
I want you all to know that when you think you can't do any more before you have gotten to your goal, you are wrong, you can get through, cry, go to the top of a hill and scream, do whatever you need to release those feeling ( so long as it is legal and not harmful to others )
And just ride it out, I have not had one bad moment this week, and I am amazed. I am not saying I won't, but I know how to deal with them now.
The end of April is my goal and I can see me getting there now. I have got to the top of my mountain and am now taking the long climb down, but that is the best bit because you have a great view all the way down
Have a good day everyone.
Anna x