Hi chooks
So, back into it today and feeling pretty positive. Docs appt this morning, so I'll feel even better after that. 'GET BACK ON IT SOUP' done ready for lunch and good old 'PETES BUTTERNUT SQUASH CURRY' for dinner all ready in fridge. Froze a load of the turkey so just need to defrost some of that to add to my curry sauce then the rest of the turkey for tomorrow's old fave 'BARNEYS RICE' remember that trace ?
I've had a big gain of 1 stone from my lightest in September, but I did start creeping up in October so my Xmas gain is probably 7lb realistically. I'll lose the 7 reasonably well as I've literally eaten anything and everything I want.
Even though I knew I felt awful about the weight going on, I couldn't address it properly as my head was off with the fairies.
So here I am feeling awful looking in the mirror and trying on a belt that goes nowhere near me thinking
' I'm not the only one, there's loads like me and I'm going to get back to where I was 3 months ago and then continue my journey and so what if I had a blip, I'm human (just) and I've just got to face fact that it takes patience to achieve things.'
Plus, we aren't machines and sometimes we gotta step off the ferris wheel now and then and Look after ourselves when the rides going too fast. Kids, divorce, work worries, friendships that weren't quite what you thought, finance etc etc all take their toll on life and it's about prioritising - what's really Important or it ends up too much to carry.
The point of this is- don't shut yourself away feeling bad, too ashamed to speak up on here that you're not doing so good like I did. I got myself into a hole unable to get out thinking im fat, I'm broke, I've no friends I can trust and it took me to do something serious to myself to realise what i was doing. There are ways of coping and lots of people on here who can give you support, and have been very low at times. Weight loss is a huge issue for all of us and this forum can help immensely if things get tough. First step, learn to like yourself. You'll be surprised.
So I'm into Jan with stats of :
13st 10 (87kg) bmi 34 bring it on