It is all so different, when you are used to being viewed, perceived, treated, etc., a certain way....to suddenly find you are now treated like a different person.
Interesting this post again - as I have adjuted and now love the attention, if I am honest.
Why shouldn;t they treat me like a different person after all - I AM a different person. Inside and out. So, I have "made peace" with it. I know, without a doubt the different treatment I now get is because of the different energy I exude.
These past few weeks in that temp job - well, that was the FIRST time in over 25 years, I ever started a job as a thin person. It was a completely different experience.
No one there knew me from ADam, but one person. SO for all they knew, I had always been slim. ANd I felt different - no angst or anxiety being paraded around the building, being shown the ropes, etc. No trying desperately to avoid the glances of staff, certain I knew what they were thinking.
This time, I was just Jan. A lady that started working there. I had the confidence to go unattended into other departments to find something, etc. I just was not the least bit bothered by what anyone thought.
A very strange and wonderful experience.
Also, have made a few "train friends" who I see daily on the route. Mostly men. :giggle: I wondered if they would have been my train pals a year ago. I know they wouldn;t have. Because I would have assumed they would not want to - so they wouldnt.
Its all new, and its all goooooooooooooood.
XXX