Tuesday 24th January 2012
  
 PP USED = 
68/39pp
 WEEKLIES USED = 
49/49pp
 
 APs EARNED = 
0AP  
 TOTAL APs EARNED = 
50AP
 TOTAL APs SPENT = 
45AP
 
 POSITIVES/THOUGHTS
 1. I had a lie in (which is good and bad lol)
 2. I managed a day 12 without choc! 
 3. I spent my day preparing for the interview....
 
 I AM A BIG FAT LUMP!!!!!!!!!!!ARGHHHHHH - I am so cross at myself.  I  have been so stressed the past three days what with the trial and this  interview and so I have just been picking at rubbish.. I am still within  my APs and I know it is a lot better than I was being for a the last  few months but I am so cross... It was also mentally to do with the fact  that with all the exercise the scales were showing me as a gain and it  made me stroppy.. I wish stress didn't affect me 

  I am having lunch on campus during interview day and then tea at  nandos..  hoping to still be fairly good... and I have planned to go to a  class and do day one of week 3 of C25K tomorrow so that will earn  25AP.. and then on Thursday I will be within dailies and hopefully do  day 2 of week 3 for another 10AP... I really want to lose 
 
And the prep isn't going great.. I slept in because I figured if I went  to bed at 11pm I would wake up naturally at 10... wanted to be well  rested... but ended up sleeping till 11.30 so with lunch etc didnt get  started till 12.30.. and have worked really hard but still have stuff to  do.. taking a break to rant then right back to it... so my plans at  being well rested have backfired as I wont sleep much tonight... and  blooming mother said "you should have got up earlier" - what a helpful  remark mother I never thought of that GGGGGGGGGGRRRRRRRRRRRR
I am really starting to worry about this interview... generally I think I  am relatively clever but this is really worrying me... I really want  it. And mum, dad and sister all really don't want me to do it.. mum was  even trying to talk me out of it saying it would be stressful.. I said  it was no more so that what I am doing... I try not to talk to them  about it as they wouldn't understand.. but most of the time I just feel  sick about the next day... but what if I can't do teaching? what if I am  useless? ARGH
Sorry for this waffle... I will be fine tomorrow...    xxx