IrishLaura
Silver Member
A few months ago, I was happy enough with life, just sliding along, then something clicked inside.
I felt unhealthy, I quit smoking.
I was far too fat, I was afraid for my health, I started LT.
I suffer from panic disorder and depression and have done for a long time. So I decided to do something about this too. Only doing something about this was not so easy.
I joined a Condition Management Programme, which has started recently here in NI, and it has been hard mentally for me to attend meetings and so on.
Yesterday I had to have my first group meeting about confidence, it was harder than I could have expected. I got there, and to be honest it was not too bad.
My main motivation for going was to meet other people just like me, who go through what I go through, but I think it was not that sort of group.
Sitting there yesterday made me see just how much i have taken on to change...... the smoking.... weight loss...... my mental health, and you know what it made me see just how strong I really am.
The reason for the post is for me to get a few things of my chest, but its also to tell you something that I have never realised before.
They told me there are 4 steps to being more confident, but the 4th step stood out the most for me : PRAISE.
Something clicked, now I am an intelligent person, but I just never thought about it the way that it was explained before.
I have had people in my life, who trod on me, who wore me down, not any more! I admitted for the first time to someone, a fortnight ago, just why I 'was' so big. I am going to tell you all, because that was the old me, and I feel I can share it. I was so fat because I ate and ate so that my ex bf would not want me, he had a hold over me that I couldnt shake, and he done things to me that I promise, you do not want to hear, so because I was so young and didnt know how to leave him, I ate so that he didnt want me sexually and so that he would eventually leave. He never, I left him in the end.
I want people in my life from now on, who deserve to be there, people who I deserve to have there.
I am going to start praising people in my life more, for even silly things, I want people to feel confident. My OH is amazing and although I do tell him this sometimes, I dont tell him enough, he is my rock.
Further more, I am going to praise myself more. I am going to be nicer to myself.
So if after all my rambling, if you can take anything away from this post, treat your loved ones like they deserve, and treat yourself like you deserve. Let noone run you down, because like me, you have taken a step by starting LT, you are doing something that most people would fail at, and that makes you pretty special and indeed very strong!
Thank you for reading!
You are FAB!
Laura x x x
I felt unhealthy, I quit smoking.
I was far too fat, I was afraid for my health, I started LT.
I suffer from panic disorder and depression and have done for a long time. So I decided to do something about this too. Only doing something about this was not so easy.
I joined a Condition Management Programme, which has started recently here in NI, and it has been hard mentally for me to attend meetings and so on.
Yesterday I had to have my first group meeting about confidence, it was harder than I could have expected. I got there, and to be honest it was not too bad.
My main motivation for going was to meet other people just like me, who go through what I go through, but I think it was not that sort of group.
Sitting there yesterday made me see just how much i have taken on to change...... the smoking.... weight loss...... my mental health, and you know what it made me see just how strong I really am.
The reason for the post is for me to get a few things of my chest, but its also to tell you something that I have never realised before.
They told me there are 4 steps to being more confident, but the 4th step stood out the most for me : PRAISE.
Something clicked, now I am an intelligent person, but I just never thought about it the way that it was explained before.
I have had people in my life, who trod on me, who wore me down, not any more! I admitted for the first time to someone, a fortnight ago, just why I 'was' so big. I am going to tell you all, because that was the old me, and I feel I can share it. I was so fat because I ate and ate so that my ex bf would not want me, he had a hold over me that I couldnt shake, and he done things to me that I promise, you do not want to hear, so because I was so young and didnt know how to leave him, I ate so that he didnt want me sexually and so that he would eventually leave. He never, I left him in the end.
I want people in my life from now on, who deserve to be there, people who I deserve to have there.
I am going to start praising people in my life more, for even silly things, I want people to feel confident. My OH is amazing and although I do tell him this sometimes, I dont tell him enough, he is my rock.
Further more, I am going to praise myself more. I am going to be nicer to myself.
So if after all my rambling, if you can take anything away from this post, treat your loved ones like they deserve, and treat yourself like you deserve. Let noone run you down, because like me, you have taken a step by starting LT, you are doing something that most people would fail at, and that makes you pretty special and indeed very strong!
Thank you for reading!
You are FAB!
Laura x x x