I've just written this in my diary, and thought I'd post it here too...
Well it's day..... erm (gets caluculator) 55 today, and I've had a really rubbish weekend. Friday in the day was fine, met up with another minis Cder in the day and it was lovely. In the eveing it was as if I'd had a personality transplant, I was craving food A LOT. We went shopping and I almost bought some chicken, put it in the trolley, got to the checkout, but then had a moment of clarity and put the chicken back. I then got home and decided that I did want to eat the chicken after all. However, the chicken was still sitting on the shelf at tesco. So, what did I do? Well You'd have thought I would have had some tuna wouldn't you? Well you'd have thought wrong. I had some (rather delicious) kettle chips instead. I had about half the size of a normal packet of crisps. I also had about 15 baby plum tomatoes with these crisps. So I ate all that, in the evening, felt really fooked off with myself as I went to bed, and vowed to learn from this.
Saturday was fine, I tested for Ketosis and by some miracle I was still in ketosis, although I felt that I didn't deserve to be. I SSed 100% all day sat, the thought of food passing my lips didn't even enter my brain. I thought I'd learnt my lesson.
I thought wrong.
Sunday I had more kettle chips. About twice the amount I had on friday. I realised I was having a big crisis of confidence with the diet. I know I will be doing CD SS for at least another 7 weeks, and I was having a major wobble (just like my stomach and thighs really!). The thought of abstaining from food for that much longer was really horrible, especially as over the summer its all BBQs and evenings out in country pubs etc. This has really been playing on my mind for the last week or so, whereas up until that point I'd been doing really well!
So yesterday evening I had to put an end to my eating craving, so thought about the best thing I could have, so i had some tuna with baby plum tomatoes and spring onions. And I didn't enjoy it at all, however it has really made think that I just need to get my head down and get on with CD. What is 7 weeks? It's nothing. I started CD so that I could start fertility treatment and have a baby, what better reason is there than that?
I checked for ketosis, and once again, I'm still in ketosis, I've no idea how I am, I guess I'm just really really lucky. I just hope I've learnt from my mistakes. Food will be there when I finish CD, I just need to remember this.
Well it's day..... erm (gets caluculator) 55 today, and I've had a really rubbish weekend. Friday in the day was fine, met up with another minis Cder in the day and it was lovely. In the eveing it was as if I'd had a personality transplant, I was craving food A LOT. We went shopping and I almost bought some chicken, put it in the trolley, got to the checkout, but then had a moment of clarity and put the chicken back. I then got home and decided that I did want to eat the chicken after all. However, the chicken was still sitting on the shelf at tesco. So, what did I do? Well You'd have thought I would have had some tuna wouldn't you? Well you'd have thought wrong. I had some (rather delicious) kettle chips instead. I had about half the size of a normal packet of crisps. I also had about 15 baby plum tomatoes with these crisps. So I ate all that, in the evening, felt really fooked off with myself as I went to bed, and vowed to learn from this.
Saturday was fine, I tested for Ketosis and by some miracle I was still in ketosis, although I felt that I didn't deserve to be. I SSed 100% all day sat, the thought of food passing my lips didn't even enter my brain. I thought I'd learnt my lesson.
I thought wrong.
Sunday I had more kettle chips. About twice the amount I had on friday. I realised I was having a big crisis of confidence with the diet. I know I will be doing CD SS for at least another 7 weeks, and I was having a major wobble (just like my stomach and thighs really!). The thought of abstaining from food for that much longer was really horrible, especially as over the summer its all BBQs and evenings out in country pubs etc. This has really been playing on my mind for the last week or so, whereas up until that point I'd been doing really well!
So yesterday evening I had to put an end to my eating craving, so thought about the best thing I could have, so i had some tuna with baby plum tomatoes and spring onions. And I didn't enjoy it at all, however it has really made think that I just need to get my head down and get on with CD. What is 7 weeks? It's nothing. I started CD so that I could start fertility treatment and have a baby, what better reason is there than that?
I checked for ketosis, and once again, I'm still in ketosis, I've no idea how I am, I guess I'm just really really lucky. I just hope I've learnt from my mistakes. Food will be there when I finish CD, I just need to remember this.
