ProPoints Debs78's just trying not to put weight on now!! (16/105lbs)

[debs78]

I have decided to write a diary simply because I have never written one before and wonder if perhaps this will help me to stay on track this time.

I am 33 yrs old and currently weight 20st 7.5lbs :cry: I cannot believe that I am so heavy and feel so embarrassed. I am uncomfortable in my own skin and just feel like a fat slob to be honest. I have always been big but never to this extent and I am now at a point where it is affecting every part of my life. I don't see friends any more. I never go out socialising. I hardly let OH near me any more.

I need this to be the time for me to change and I do feel that it is. I know that I have reached a point where I am ready to take back some control in my life.

The idea of this diary is for me to be able to read it back in a year and see how far I have come.

I am a shift worker so probably wont be able to update every day but I'll do my best.

I am currently allowed 44 points which I think is just
So today I have had:
Breakfast - Omelette with ham and spinach
Lunch - Warburtons square wrap pizza using ww roast garlic sauce, mushrooms, courgette, spinach and ham with reduced fat cheese. Shape 0% yoghurt and sugar free jelly for dessert.
Dinner - Cracker bread with philidelphia light with chives and smoked salmon.

I am on nights to nights tonight so will be taking carrots and reduced fat houmous and ww tomato and basil soup.

It's not all my points but I still feel like I've had enough.

So that's me. I'm looking forward to reading this back in a few months time a happier and slimmer me :wave_cry:

 

[debs78]

Just wishing you all the best for your weight loss journey. I weighed 21st when I started this journey and am now - 121 lbs so if I can do it then so can you!! I also have a diary on here and you are welcome to pop in anytime, especially if you need a kick up the butt or some encouragement. Take good care and good luck on your week ahead. Jo x

121lbs that's amazing, well done. I will definitely look up your diary for motivation. Can I ask how long it took you pls and was it all with WW? Thank you for the support x

 

[debs78]

Jo that's incredible. I have read some of your diary and you have done so well. That is the inspiration I am looking for

Well I am doing very well I think. I was working nights last night and as usual it was someone's brother's dog's birthday so cakes just HAD to be brought in But I refused and just chomped on my carrot sticks. It didn't even feel like a sacrifice....but then since every day for the last 6 months has been like Christmas day for me one cake-free night is not exactly a big deal right now, give me a couple more weeks and my view may change

I had breakfast of crackerbread with philly and smoked salmon when I got home this morning. When I got up I took the dogs for a 45 min walk on-lead so that I actually walked too rather than stroll slow pace round the park throwing a ball for them. When I got home I had a warburtons wrap pizza again with lots of veggies. I think these may become my staple they are so yummy and a great way of getting loads of veggies while feeling like I'm being a bit naughty :giggle:

Nights again tonight so will take some cous cous with salad and fish for dinner and carrot sticks and houmous again. Then it's rest days until next Weds....YAY!!!!!

Weigh in day is Sunday so hoping for a decent first week loss.

 

[debs78]

Finished work a bit early last night and so was in bed for 0500 instead of 0800, much more civilised So I was up for 1100 and took Maisie my Labrador out for a walk. Got back and had scrambled egg on nimble toast with a bit of spread and ketchup for a bargain of 9pp. Having steak with BNS chips and mushrooms for dinner and really looking forward to it

We are going through a big restructure at work at the moment (public sector cuts and all that). I'm going to be going through a de-selection test and interview next month for my job. I'm currently a shift manager. If for some reason I don't get through I will still have a job as an operator but it's a lot less money and will be a real step back after working so hard to get a managers job (acted up for 3 years). I know I shouldn't grumble with so many being out of work but I do worry about the pay drop. OH was made redundant in Sept and hasn't been able to find work yet. We manage on just my wages but I don't think we will if I have to take a pay cut. We'll just have to see what happens. It's just got to the point now where I want to get to the other side and know what's happening. I've had this hanging over me for over a year while they decided how many jobs were going and how they were going to decide.

I think it's the stress of it all that has really contributed to my weight gain this last year. As I have said I've always big but in the last year I have probably put on about 2.5-3 more stones. The problem was that I was using wine as an easy stress-reliever and was easily drinking a bottle to a bottle and a half of wine a night The only nights I took off were when I was working night shifts so 2 in every 10.....my poor liver

So the main goal for me at the moment is to keep off the alcohol. I'm an all or nothing kinda girl so have decided there will be no alcohol this month. I think if I can stick to that I have a good chance of seeing some decent losses.

Anyway I have gone on a bit today so will leave it there

 

[stokegal]

Hi Debs

You sound so motivated and like you are doing great. I'm a similar weight to yourself and started yesterday so my wi is on a Thursday but will be following your diary as all of the things you have described as feeling could have been written by myself

Stokegal x

 

[debs78]

I've lost 9.5lbs!! I'm so pleased with myself and really spurred on for next week. I've lost a point but I'm not bothered as I've been struggling to eat all of them anyway. I'll update a bit more later but I just wanted to record on my diary how utterly thrilled I am right now

 

[stokegal]

OMG well done lady I hope my loss is half as good as yours x

 

[Malluca]

Well done on the brilliant loss

 

[debs78]

Another 100% day today. I have to confess to being a bit naughty and missing breakfast this morning. I had a couple of cups of tea when I got up and ended up forgetting to eat. I went to Asda and stocked up on lots of fruit and veg as well as some treats like quavers and skinny cow ice creams. Then took the dogs for a walk. I'm really enjoying getting out for proper walks again, it' been too long. I think I'm going to pop my pedometer on from tomorrow and see how much I can clock up in a day. It's one of the old points ones so wont be able to see how many pro points I get but then I can barely manage my dailies at the moment never mind adding in exercise points

I think making Sunday my weigh day was a good idea. Normally Saturday would be my day for rubbish dinner and stuffing my face but knowing I was weighing this morning I was very good last night and stayed within my points.

For lunch I made us a wrap pizza with ham, spinach, mushrooms, courgettes and cheese. For dinner we had pork loin (extra trimmed) with a small amount of mash, roast celeriac, carrots, broccoli, yorkshire pudding and gravy and it was lurvly

The only problem is it's nearly 8pm and I still have 15 points left This wouldn't normally be a problem as I'd just drink them but since I'm abstaining it's not an option for me. Oh well, sure I'll find something

Night night

 

[debs78]

My car was meant ti be getting it's MOT and service today but got to the garage and the ramp was broken so they couldn't do it. This is a bit of a problem as it needs doing and I'm back to work on Weds. Oh well, sure I'll think of something

So anyway, as we had the car unexpectedly we decided to take the dogs for a nice walk. It was lovely, lots of freah air and the girls had a ball

Here's a pic if anyone is interested

Completely forgot my pedometer again though...doh

On course for another 100% day today. Had all-bran golden crunch for brekky. Crispbreads with chive philly light and smoked salmon for lunch with banana, sugar free jelly and shape 0% yoghurt for afters. Probably having chicken and veg on a wrap for dinner as I am a bit obsessed with these. I will have about 6 points left for snacks later if I'm peckish.

Now for a bit of a ramble. I have really noticed how much happier I have been the last few days. I think it must be a combination of good food, no alcohol and upping my exercise but I just feel so much better in myself. OH and I are even getting on better which is a brilliant side effect of a diet I'm loving it and just really hoping that I can find the determination to continue doing this long term and not just go back to my old ways in a few weeks time or when I get my first sts. I know it will happen, maybe even this week after such a big loss last week, and I just want to be prepared for it so that I can think 'oh well, carry on, you'll lose it next week'. I am enjoying pouring it all out on here as well, I think starting a diary is going to be one of my better dieting decisions

Anyway, if you got this far thanks for reading my ramble xx

 

[debs78]

Not too much to say today. We took the dogs for a lovely walk in the sunshine. I made bacon, egg and mushrooms for breakfast, weight watchers salmon, broccoli and wedges ready meal for lunch which, although small, was lovely and surprisingly filling. Dinner was chicken stir fry with banana, sugar free jelly and yoghurt for afters. Leaves a few points for later if I need them although it will be an early night tonight as I'm back at work tomorrow... boooooo!!

 

[debs78]

First day back at work today after rest days. Not much to report, it was just work. Foodwise I've been 100% again today. I had warburtons sandwich thin with laughing cow light, ham and scrambled egg for breakfast, leftover chicken stir fry from last night's dinner for lunch and dinner was Tesco light choices chicken in tomato and basil sauce with crispy potatoes, sauteed courgettes, carrots and broccoli. It was lovely and I am now stuffed Snacks have been fruit, sugar free jelly and special k mini breaks. I do have 8 points left for the evening but not sure how I'm going to manage them. I bought some galaxy snack bars today so I might have one of those in a bit for 4 points, yummy

 

[debs78]

I started a 3 day work course today which was a 9a-4p, a lot nicer than the 7a-5p shift I would have been working today or the 12p-10p shifts I should have been on for the next 2 It also makes sticking to the plan a lot easier.

We almost ended up with a new pup today. It was found in our neighbours garden this morning, a little boy no older than 10 weeks old. The neighbours couldn't keep him because they have a young child and a cat. We went over to introduce our dogs but Maisie didn't seem keen and did tell it off a couple of times. This didn't worry us because we know Maisie hasn't got an aggressive bone in her body and she would have got used to him but it made the neighbour nervous and so it was decided he would stay with them until an owner came forward or a foster home could be found. As it turned out the owner turned up this evening after hearing he he had been found. They weren't in earlier when my OH had knocked on their door because they were out looking for him. He was soooo cute though and I think if I had brought him home I would have been hard pressed to let him go again

Diet wise it has been another successful day. I had a ww bagel with chive philly light and smoked salmon for breakfast, 2 warburtons sandwich thins with laughing cow light cheese spread, wafer thin ham and spinach for lunch and cod and prawn shepherds pie with courgettes, mushrooms and carrots for dinner. Snacks have so far been a pack of special k mini breaks. I have 11 points left though so think I'm going to have some jelly and yoghurt for afters and maybe a snacksize galaxy bar to use some more points but I still think I'll be under by about 4 points.

I'll have to see how my WI goes this week because I have been under by anything from 1pp to 6pp since I started and I am aware that being under can be as bad as being over. If I haven't lost anything this week I will have to look at getting some non-diet food to boost my points a bit. I wont be going shopping before my WI now though so will wait and see what happens on Sunday.

 

[debs78]

Ok so I'm just going to confess straight away, I failed my first challenge I had vodka and diet coke tonight and thoroughly enjoyed it I did point it though and am still well within my points so I'm not going to beat myself up but equally I'm not going to think that it's ok to do this all the time. It's a one off, get past it, move on

Other than vodka-gate I've been very good again today. Crackerbread with philly light and smoked salmon for brekky, sandwich thin with ham and laughing cow light for lunch and wrap pizza with chicken and veg fajita mix topping. Snacks were special k mini bites, quavers and fruit.

I am really enjoying my work course. I'm finding it quite challenging which is a nice change as I've been feeling a bit staid at work recently.

What I liked today was that I looked in a mirror at work and could tell that I've lost a bit of weight. I think what I have lost is actually bloating rather than 'weight' but it has made a difference to my shape. I obviously have a long way to go yet but being able to see some results, however small, is really encouraging

 

[debs78]

I passed my course I am really self critical and wasn't sure I had done that well but the feedback I got today was really good and has made me so much more confident. The funny thing is I have absolute confidence in my ability in the live environment but put me in a role play situation and I go to pot (although not as bad as I think apparently) I know I can do this though and it's really exciting

Diet wise I have had a bit of a night off tonight. I have ended up using all of my dailies and what was left of my weeklies. Probably not the best idea as it's weigh day tomorrow but I'm working 4pm-1am tomorrow so it's not like I could have a night off tomorrow.

I weighed myself this morning and if I can maintain that even with tonight's blow out for tomorrow morning I will be very happy.

 

[debs78]

So I lost 2.5lbs this week despite my Saturday night blow out so I'm really pleased with that.

I'm still staying on plan so I'm confident I can get a stone off by the end of January. I'm determined not to look for a quick win this time as that's where I have gone wrong in the past. I've expected results faster than I got them so got disheartened and quit. This time I am aiming for a slow and steady average of half a stone a month. I think this is achievable and by doing it slowly I am much more likely to keep it off.

Food wise, yesterday I had bagel with philly light and smoked salmon for breakfast, roast chicken dinner with loads of veg for lunch and sandwiches made from warburtons sandwich thins, light choices ham and laughing cow light. Snacks were fruit and a packet of french fries. When I got home from work at 0100 I had a mint aero hot chocolate before bed.

Today I had bacon egg and mushroom sandwich for breakfast (well lunch really by the time I ate) and dinner will be a weight watchers chicken and mushroom pie for 8 points with lots of veg. I have had a dairylea dunkers for a snack and other than that I will be having yoghurt with sugar free jelly and fruit. I'm working a 1800-0300 shift tonight and then it's rest days until Saturday so OH and I are planning some nice walks, hopefully the weather stays as nice as it has been the last couple of days

 

[debs78]

I've had a bit of an off-track day today and gone 19pp in to my weeklies The car has gone in for it's MOT and service and it looks like it's going to cost us £300+ It could have been worse but I got a groupon for the service and MOT so at least that cut the cost a bit. We really have to try and upgrade the car this year. It's over 10 years old now and costs a lot to run, add to that the cost of tax and insurance and it's just soooo expensive. Just got to work out how we can afford a new one now

So as a natural reaction to stress I ate!! I wont list everything but suffice to sat at 61pp today it was a lot!! I still have 30 weeklies left though but I really don't want to use them as I think I would struggle to lose anything if I did. I'm really going to make some effort to get some exercise tomorrow.

 

[stokegal]

Hi hun

Your thread is looking great!! Sorry to hear about the car, they're a nightmare. I have managed to pull a wire out under the passengers seat in mine which has set off the airbag light. I've been told it won't cost loads to get fixed but it's still money I don't have

Don't worry about your blow out - your weeklies are there to be used. Hopefully you should still see a loss on the scales and if not then at least you can attribute it to your weeklies and know what you do need to do to get a loss the following week

Stokegal x

 

[debs78]

Hi hun

Your thread is looking great!! Sorry to hear about the car, they're a nightmare. I have managed to pull a wire out under the passengers seat in mine which has set off the airbag light. I've been told it won't cost loads to get fixed but it's still money I don't have

Don't worry about your blow out - your weeklies are there to be used. Hopefully you should still see a loss on the scales and if not then at least you can attribute it to your weeklies and know what you do need to do to get a loss the following week

Stokegal x

Thanks hun. It's funny cos even though I know I can have the weeklies it stills feels like cheating when I go over my dailies. I just hope I get a loss this week but I'm not hopeful though, but we'll see

 

[debs78]

I have been a very good girl today and even after having a very filling lunch and dinner with snacks I still have 13pp left for the day. I will eat some of them but TBH I'm happy to have a low point day today since my last 2 days have been high at 61pp and 49pp respectively. I remember reading a thread (on here I think) a long time ago about the benefits of changing your points each day. It was described as being like a furnace where you eat more one day and turn your furnace up to burn the extra points then eat less the following day. The idea is that your inner furnace is still turned up and you burn more off while eating a bit less IYSWIM . Over the course of the week you eat all of your points but it keeps your body guessing about how much it will be getting. I didn't decide to test the theory intentionally but as I am eating less today it might be worth seeing what my loss is like this week as currently I still showing a sts (had a sneaky look this morning).

I haven't done a great deal of anything the last few days. I have been on rest days as since my car was getting it's service and MOT I was stranded at the house for a couple of days. I have been out with the dogs but the weather was a bit grotty today so we didn't go very far. I'm really looking forward to the longer nights coming in soon. Winter just doesn't give you any motivation to get up and out and considering I'm a bit of a lazy bum anyway it's really not helping me to get the exercise I need to.

I'm back to work tomorrow but as the weather is apparently going to continue to be grotty for the next few days I wont complain too much