bigmuthabluffa
Full Member
hi guys self sabotage has been an enemy to fight with over the years, I have been there a few times and I have done alot of thinking about it, so here are my theories
Compliments although are nice to receive just cement the fact that while I was fat I wasn't good enough for people to notice.
Compliments are about my weight loss and not about me, meaning again I am not being complimented just the lack of fat.
Compliments sometimes come with a how did you do it, and that means the person only wants to know my secrets not me.
Compliments are also sometimes from healthy and thin people who try to compare themselves with my war against fat, and this is just annoying because they haven't got a *&%$^%$ clue.
More personally, Compliments are not something I am used to and I still don't feel worthy of them, that then makes me feel very uncomfortable.
I then thing the self sabotage comes in because I want to be accepted as a 'fattie' in the same way as a 'thinnie', also because I am not comfortable getting the compliments one sure fire way of not getting any is being fat again, so it is my hidey place.
Bit deep maybe for a morning but this is how it effects me,
This time however I am ready for all the psycological warfare as well as the physical warfare,
I am not healthy when I am Fat, that is the bottom line, people will always have opinions, good or bad about how I lose the weight or how I look,
I am fed up with hiding behind my fat suit, so from now on people can have their opinions, I am going to accept the compliments as opinions and keep on my journey to healthiness
Compliments although are nice to receive just cement the fact that while I was fat I wasn't good enough for people to notice.
Compliments are about my weight loss and not about me, meaning again I am not being complimented just the lack of fat.
Compliments sometimes come with a how did you do it, and that means the person only wants to know my secrets not me.
Compliments are also sometimes from healthy and thin people who try to compare themselves with my war against fat, and this is just annoying because they haven't got a *&%$^%$ clue.
More personally, Compliments are not something I am used to and I still don't feel worthy of them, that then makes me feel very uncomfortable.
I then thing the self sabotage comes in because I want to be accepted as a 'fattie' in the same way as a 'thinnie', also because I am not comfortable getting the compliments one sure fire way of not getting any is being fat again, so it is my hidey place.
Bit deep maybe for a morning but this is how it effects me,
This time however I am ready for all the psycological warfare as well as the physical warfare,
I am not healthy when I am Fat, that is the bottom line, people will always have opinions, good or bad about how I lose the weight or how I look,
I am fed up with hiding behind my fat suit, so from now on people can have their opinions, I am going to accept the compliments as opinions and keep on my journey to healthiness