Hello
It might seem a bit presumptuous to post a food diary before I've joined in anywhere else on the site, but the truth is I think I urgently need the accountability that putting my eating into a public realm will provide. I've been doing SW faithfully for five weeks now and have lost a total of 4lbs. Every week I'm seeing people who have lost more that week than I have in total and it's so disheartening. Also this week I had a gain which really was the last thing I needed. My group is huge and I wish I felt a little more supported than I do. The group is largely made up of people with much less weight to lose than me, and seemingly many more resources than me. I never felt like I was one of the biggest in society before, as I like to flatter myself that I carry my weight well and dress for my figure, but in this group of 'fat' people, I am probably the fattest.
I want so much to be rid of this fat suit I'm wearing, and I want to be a positive role model for my children, but I have demons working against me. I've been depressed since childhood, and through extensive hard work am just about on top of it now, but the downside of that is that the medication which has enabled me to move on with my life has also helped me balloon my body to six stones heavier than it ought to be. Over the past year I have put on half a stone a month. My medication is known to cause weight gain and also to stop people from ever feeling satisfied by food. This is extra disheartening as in 2009/2010 I lost five stone after pregnancy and now it's all back and then some.
However, I don't want to be a negative person and I do actually believe that I can do this. It's going to be a long old slog and my results will probably be deathly slow, and sometimes I'll slip up but I'll keep dusting myself off and getting back up for as long as it takes because I want a life where my weight is a number, not a character flaw.
I'll be back later with my food diary for the day.
It might seem a bit presumptuous to post a food diary before I've joined in anywhere else on the site, but the truth is I think I urgently need the accountability that putting my eating into a public realm will provide. I've been doing SW faithfully for five weeks now and have lost a total of 4lbs. Every week I'm seeing people who have lost more that week than I have in total and it's so disheartening. Also this week I had a gain which really was the last thing I needed. My group is huge and I wish I felt a little more supported than I do. The group is largely made up of people with much less weight to lose than me, and seemingly many more resources than me. I never felt like I was one of the biggest in society before, as I like to flatter myself that I carry my weight well and dress for my figure, but in this group of 'fat' people, I am probably the fattest.
I want so much to be rid of this fat suit I'm wearing, and I want to be a positive role model for my children, but I have demons working against me. I've been depressed since childhood, and through extensive hard work am just about on top of it now, but the downside of that is that the medication which has enabled me to move on with my life has also helped me balloon my body to six stones heavier than it ought to be. Over the past year I have put on half a stone a month. My medication is known to cause weight gain and also to stop people from ever feeling satisfied by food. This is extra disheartening as in 2009/2010 I lost five stone after pregnancy and now it's all back and then some.
However, I don't want to be a negative person and I do actually believe that I can do this. It's going to be a long old slog and my results will probably be deathly slow, and sometimes I'll slip up but I'll keep dusting myself off and getting back up for as long as it takes because I want a life where my weight is a number, not a character flaw.
I'll be back later with my food diary for the day.
