Jo B
Full Member
I am probably going to sound ungrateful now, for wish I apologise. The last few weeks my weight loss has dropped off - I know it's still more than a lot of people (and that's where the ungratefulness comes in) and it is to be expected as I get smaller I need less calories to move me around but tonight, for the first time, I just felt a bit sick of it all. It's difficult to explain but I think I am hitting a bit of a mental wall for the first time. Whether it's because I am now 12 stone 12 which I NEVER thought I would be and yet I am still quite hideously fat underneath my clothes. Apparently I only have 1 stone 5lbs to lose before I hit a healthy BMI but there is no way on gods earth it can only be that as my stomach is still a mass of blubber.
Up until now I have been lucky and have pretty much sailed through mentally with cooking and hearing about other lapsing in my group not effecting me in the slightest but this evening someone had had 2 boiled eggs and still lost more than me - which really hacked me off. I don't know if I am bored of the packs (possibly), bored of the diet in general or bored of it just taking over and dictating everything in my life (also possible). I've been off sick at home for the last couple of days and have been bored and fantasising about food which I don't think has helped but I think I am feeling sorry for myself. I know there is nothing that anyone else can do to help but needed to put it all down I think - rant over!
Up until now I have been lucky and have pretty much sailed through mentally with cooking and hearing about other lapsing in my group not effecting me in the slightest but this evening someone had had 2 boiled eggs and still lost more than me - which really hacked me off. I don't know if I am bored of the packs (possibly), bored of the diet in general or bored of it just taking over and dictating everything in my life (also possible). I've been off sick at home for the last couple of days and have been bored and fantasising about food which I don't think has helped but I think I am feeling sorry for myself. I know there is nothing that anyone else can do to help but needed to put it all down I think - rant over!