Funky_Munky
Put the kettle on
I dunno what’s up with me, but I am feeling really fed up and just feel like what’s the point with trying to lose weight.
I feel like I’ve spent the last five years of my life on a diet and what for? I’ve not lost anything cos for all I say I’ve been on a diet, I’ve not stuck to them for more than a few weeks at best. I’ve been on a binge/purge cycle for all that time. I’m so annoyed cos last year I got the slimmest I’ve been in a long time and then went and blew it so I’m back up to my usual size 14/11 stone.
I feel like I should just give up and accept myself as I am, but as much as I wish I could I still hate what I see in the mirror. But then I wonder if I’ll ever be happy anyway cos when I was thinner I still wasn’t happy with how I looked. I’ve spent my whole life being over weight and hating myself for it which I feel stupid about anyway cos I’ve still had a wonderful, successful and fulfilling life in spite of feeling like it holds me back.
I’m back at SW classes and while I’m hanging on in there for my MIL, I feel personally what’s the point?! I won’t lose anything and I feel like it will take me forever to get to a weight/size I’m happy with and then for what?! Just to go and put it back on?! I won’t keep it off for longer than a few months. I just feel so resentful sometimes when I cannot eat what I want when I want.
I feel like I’m so good at dishing advice out to everyone else re dieting but don’t listen to it myself. I know I should be happy with one to two pounds a week but what do I do in the mean time when all my clothes are too tight and I don’t have anything nice to wear on a night out with my husband?!
God I just feel so fed up and now sound like a crazy person. How do I do this?! :cry::cry::cry:
I feel like I’ve spent the last five years of my life on a diet and what for? I’ve not lost anything cos for all I say I’ve been on a diet, I’ve not stuck to them for more than a few weeks at best. I’ve been on a binge/purge cycle for all that time. I’m so annoyed cos last year I got the slimmest I’ve been in a long time and then went and blew it so I’m back up to my usual size 14/11 stone.
I feel like I should just give up and accept myself as I am, but as much as I wish I could I still hate what I see in the mirror. But then I wonder if I’ll ever be happy anyway cos when I was thinner I still wasn’t happy with how I looked. I’ve spent my whole life being over weight and hating myself for it which I feel stupid about anyway cos I’ve still had a wonderful, successful and fulfilling life in spite of feeling like it holds me back.
I’m back at SW classes and while I’m hanging on in there for my MIL, I feel personally what’s the point?! I won’t lose anything and I feel like it will take me forever to get to a weight/size I’m happy with and then for what?! Just to go and put it back on?! I won’t keep it off for longer than a few months. I just feel so resentful sometimes when I cannot eat what I want when I want.
I feel like I’m so good at dishing advice out to everyone else re dieting but don’t listen to it myself. I know I should be happy with one to two pounds a week but what do I do in the mean time when all my clothes are too tight and I don’t have anything nice to wear on a night out with my husband?!
God I just feel so fed up and now sound like a crazy person. How do I do this?! :cry::cry::cry: