hi pbrown, i swear when i read your post i thought i had wrote it!! exactly how i feel too babes and im starting tomorrow, you wont be alone, i know with the lighter life they offer the counselling thats why im really hoping this site will help motivate me and ill be here for you chick to spur you on too!! pm me if you want to chat or keep in touch , good luck for tomorrow xxx theres a few good posts on here at the minute with tips on how to stay motivated / get motivated xxx