Greeneyes will PERSEVERE.........

Happy Tuesday Greeneyes and thanks for yesterday's wise words on my thread!

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Morning GE,

Hope you are well today , well done on your loss and the lower BMI!!
Happy Wednesday hun
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Yesterday was a bad day, but it made me rethink things......

Firstly I lasted ok until lunchtime when I had an egg mayonnaise sandwich, not so bad, but then I ate a whole pack of Weightwatchers Mallow and Caramel Wafer thingys, but then again they are only 1 pro point each so couldn't have been majorly bad (she kids herself), next I had a piece of the cake my son made at school, vanilla and choc marble cake with butter icing inside.... 1 pack of snack a jacks and then rice and chicken and mushroom from the chinese for dinner, followed again by a piece of cake.

Now here come the excuses..... whilst on CD last time I never got into ketosis, or my body didn't act like I did (the ketostix never showed I was) even though I stuck to it 100%, thus I was starving hungry all the way through and I more or less sat on a sofa for 4 months whilst losing the weight, freezing cold and starving hungry and depressed and as I design things this was not good as I had no inclination to design, so much so that I came a tiny pinch away from jacking in my work, I saved it at the 23rd hour so to speak.

Yesterday I felt myself sinking again into that pit, I guess over the last year whenever I have restarted I have reached this stage and given up, I am too frightened to go back down into that pit again and is it worth it for a 2-3 stone weight loss, I had much more to lose last time.... no I dont think it is. So I had a voucher for weightwatchers, free to register and the first session so me and daughter went along last night..... I have decided to try and follow this plan. Because I need to eat healthily at the end of dieting and I think this will help me along the way, I need to eat healthy to lose the weight so why not carry on at the end of my journey... also because I am already in the mindset of, oh well I have put on a stone, I will do CD for a quick loss and then maintain..... am I really? or will the same happen as last time, I work up the plans because I dont particularly like what is in the menus I give up once I have finished. So yes the weight loss will be slower, but the idea is that it becomes a way of life and so I can lose weight whilst eating healthily and carry on being creative and happy. That at least is my plan for the time being. Poor DD nearly died when she got on the scales, hopefully it has shocked her into losing the weight this time as she is very unhealthy and has post natal depression and is on tablets, but she tipped the scales at over 17 stone, hopefully we will be able to support each other in this.

Thanks for sticking by me on my journey everyone.....
 
Big hug for Greeneyes. I think this is something that is happening to many of us this time, the journey is not as simple or as 'easy' as it was last time for all kinds of reasons... but I'm thinking especially of some of the things that MinnieMel posted on my thread on Monday when I was upset about my 'gain'. It was about how slow CD can be after so many stop-start attempts, as our bodies now know what is coming and almost right away they are crying out for food. Not crying even, screaming sometimes.

Like you Greeneyes I had many stop/start attempts last year, none of which got very far, but which may have slowed my metabolism and made my body panic a bit now it is back on such a low cal diet. This is why I decided to step up to 810, because I felt I needed to, and luckily I do like 810 so think I may be OK here for a while. BUT what I am trying to say is that I understand what you are going through hun, it is HARD, and I think that if you cannot find a calm zone then rather than struggle every day with all this you are doing the RIGHT thing by finding something you CAN stick to.

I think if CD is a difficult journey for you at the best of times, it must be worse again now, and that you are wise to recognise this and move across to WW so quickly before allowing yesterday's blip to escalate. This journey is not about speed anymore, it is about getting there... one day. And I believe we all will, as we are too stubborn and determined not to! And because we have each other, and we ARE in this together, then and now, no matter which plan we are following to get to goal.

I think that having your daughter with you along the way will be a big incentive too. I am certain you can do it, and agree that learning to work with food is one of the most important lessons we have to learn. Please keep posting Greeneyes, whatever the path taken, the destination is the same for us all.

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I'd like to echo exactly what KC has just said. CD isn't an easy option, especially when you have families to cater for. Well done for getting off the cycle, though not off our wagon GE.

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Thanks KC and CL, I hope to be able to stay here as I do find us all being back here again an incentive not to give up altogether. This time last year I had put on just over a stone and lost it with WW and got to become a Gold Member, so I know it does work and that I can do it.... and Katy, your post almost had me in tears, thank you so much in a nice way..... lol
 
So pleased, I had jacket potato, turkey ham and salad for lunch followed by some grapes. I was going to have a curly wurly with a cup of black coffee and an apple when I got back from picking the children up from school, but I thought about it, and although I really fancy one, I am actually not hungry, so I am not going to have it, maybe after dinner if I am still hungry..... this is definately a breakthrough for me, I am trying to listen to my body for once instead of my mind.
 
yay Greeneyes! Sounds like a great start, and a brilliant day for you.

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Just caught up Linda, well done on making this decision, going straight from one to the other without getting sidetracked is great! I'm thinking and reading because what ever I do this is it this time. Have you done SW? and if so how does it compare to WW do you think?
 
Yes I have done SW late last year and earlier in the year but found it didn't work for me not even when sticking to plan 100%. I lost the first few weeks then juggled the weight on and off for the next 10 weeks losing the same few pounds and gaining them again. I have found that WW works much better for me. I did lose over a stone really quickly about 6 weeks but that was on their previous plan. Have just started the new one so will see what happens.
 
Morning GE, Yay to you for keeping on with your goal in mind and choosing what's right for you at the moment, it's all steps in the direction to where you want to be, you'll do great! Fab too that you are listening for hunger and knowing the difference between that and desire, big step there hunny.

Have a fab day, enjoy your plan!

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Have a WWonderful Thursday Greeneyes!

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Evening GE keep going hun on WW i rate this diet alot.!!

as you said you have done it before so you can do it again.!

good luck and let us know how u are getting on chicken xx
 
Hey hon .
Just catching up on diaries.. and just want to say you need to do whats right for you right now! Cambridge weight plan can be tough at times and totally understand why ww is right for you right now..
Good luck with it hon . sounds like you had a fab day xxxx
 
Morning GE, Hope you are doing great and can manage your Friday today!
Have a fab Friday hunny
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Have a great friday Greeneyes... hope WW is going WWonderfully for you! Let us know how you are getting on...

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