tisseltass
Full Member
Hi everyone!
I happend to stumble upon this forum and there seems to be such a supportive and positive mood here that I wanted to share my story with you guys to.
I have been overweight for as long as I can remember, in May 2008 I hit my heaviest weight, 205 pounds (being 5.4 tall). I have never felt that my weight was in the way for what I wanted to do in life, my upbringing gave me a big sence of.. perspective I think and I have had the good fortune to have a good job and very close and supportive friends and family. I did however, in May, feel like a big lump. I was so tired, and I was so tired of the way I looked it was really affecting my life. I realized that, I'm really not a 9-5 kind of person, I like to do things at 150% so for me, Cambridge was great. I really struggle to count calories and plan all my meals (I really hate that, takes over your life completely and takes so much time.) So just getting food out of the picture was for me a good thing, it made me realize, as so many of you here has probably experienced, that my relationship with food was quite messed up. And it forced me to find other things in life to do and enjoy instead of food, that was a big wakeup-call. I did about 4 weeks of just shakes and then started to have one meal a day, starting to eat really carefully and with big awareness. In total went from 205 to 182 during the summer. After that I felt that i got into a good healthy relationship with food, I do work out a lot and have done so for a long time and during the next year, with out the cambridge I went down to 169 pounds just by having a good healthy perspective on food and doing exercise and feeling good. No calories where counted! Yey!
During this year, 2010 and spring 2011 I have really been doing a lot of exercise, 6 times a week however, I have slowly lost my good eating rabbits. I find myself once again craving comfortfood and cookies and, having allowed my self to eat them since I have been doing all the training I find my self a bit lost again, and, my weight is stuck at 169 pounds, which is getting frustrating. So, I decided to come back to cambridge once again, and here I am. I started out yesterday and yes, I had forgotten how HUNGRY you are at first.
Day 1, absolutely starving! I can not see my self getting through this day. Just alone at home, trying to study for finals and yes. Starving. So, I decide I need some feelgood TV and watch "Gilmore Girls" I love that show. But do you know what they do? THEY EAT! Like, all the time! Big fail. I even go down to the store, holding a bag of pretzels having the worst craving I can remember and fortunately, put them back and turned around for the diet soda. I did add 2 eggs to the diet on the first day, I have realized that this helps me a lot, it's filling, has basically no carbs so you don't have to worry about ketosis (If you worry about that) For me, I just get the carb cravings SOO easily, if I would eat a pice of bread right now it would all just fall apart and I would get starving. However, I did survive the day. Phew. Forgot how hard that actually is.
Day 2, woke up with _the_ headache. I recognized it from last time. However, I'm not hungry! Aha! The first moring shake actually fills nicely and i feel full. Did some exercising today, however, really tired and my body got tired really fast, I do really feel low on energy but not hungry. Which is just, aaah, so good. Right now I'm enjoying my lovely dinner with a soup and an boiled egg (Do you know how GOOD an egg can be?! Omg. So good.)
I did also tell most of the people in my proximity what I'm doing, I have found that to be easier as, they don't always understand but it releases a lot of tension, just that they know you are not eating.
I would like to loose another 22 pounds, so, I will do the clean diet until the 12th of may, then do 2 shakes + 1 meal I think. We'll see. I have one cheat planned though, for sunday. I usually don't cheat at all when I do the shake only part but this has been decided forever, so, I'm just going to do it carefully and hopefully it will be fine. I'll continue to work out so on the days where I do cardio, I'll probably add eggs or a shake, otherwise I'll just be feeling bad. And, well, that's not good for motivation.
Oh my, this was a gigantic posting. Sorry about that, and if you actually read all the way to here, thank you.
Good luck to all of you out there, you really can do it. It's actually quite easy, we just do it!
Hugs!
I happend to stumble upon this forum and there seems to be such a supportive and positive mood here that I wanted to share my story with you guys to.
I have been overweight for as long as I can remember, in May 2008 I hit my heaviest weight, 205 pounds (being 5.4 tall). I have never felt that my weight was in the way for what I wanted to do in life, my upbringing gave me a big sence of.. perspective I think and I have had the good fortune to have a good job and very close and supportive friends and family. I did however, in May, feel like a big lump. I was so tired, and I was so tired of the way I looked it was really affecting my life. I realized that, I'm really not a 9-5 kind of person, I like to do things at 150% so for me, Cambridge was great. I really struggle to count calories and plan all my meals (I really hate that, takes over your life completely and takes so much time.
) So just getting food out of the picture was for me a good thing, it made me realize, as so many of you here has probably experienced, that my relationship with food was quite messed up. And it forced me to find other things in life to do and enjoy instead of food, that was a big wakeup-call. I did about 4 weeks of just shakes and then started to have one meal a day, starting to eat really carefully and with big awareness. In total went from 205 to 182 during the summer. After that I felt that i got into a good healthy relationship with food, I do work out a lot and have done so for a long time and during the next year, with out the cambridge I went down to 169 pounds just by having a good healthy perspective on food and doing exercise and feeling good. No calories where counted! Yey!During this year, 2010 and spring 2011 I have really been doing a lot of exercise, 6 times a week however, I have slowly lost my good eating rabbits. I find myself once again craving comfortfood and cookies and, having allowed my self to eat them since I have been doing all the training I find my self a bit lost again, and, my weight is stuck at 169 pounds, which is getting frustrating. So, I decided to come back to cambridge once again, and here I am. I started out yesterday and yes, I had forgotten how HUNGRY you are at first.
Day 1, absolutely starving! I can not see my self getting through this day. Just alone at home, trying to study for finals and yes. Starving. So, I decide I need some feelgood TV and watch "Gilmore Girls" I love that show. But do you know what they do? THEY EAT! Like, all the time! Big fail. I even go down to the store, holding a bag of pretzels having the worst craving I can remember and fortunately, put them back and turned around for the diet soda. I did add 2 eggs to the diet on the first day, I have realized that this helps me a lot, it's filling, has basically no carbs so you don't have to worry about ketosis (If you worry about that) For me, I just get the carb cravings SOO easily, if I would eat a pice of bread right now it would all just fall apart and I would get starving. However, I did survive the day. Phew. Forgot how hard that actually is.
Day 2, woke up with _the_ headache. I recognized it from last time. However, I'm not hungry! Aha! The first moring shake actually fills nicely and i feel full. Did some exercising today, however, really tired and my body got tired really fast, I do really feel low on energy but not hungry. Which is just, aaah, so good. Right now I'm enjoying my lovely dinner with a soup and an boiled egg (Do you know how GOOD an egg can be?! Omg. So good.
)I did also tell most of the people in my proximity what I'm doing, I have found that to be easier as, they don't always understand but it releases a lot of tension, just that they know you are not eating.
I would like to loose another 22 pounds, so, I will do the clean diet until the 12th of may, then do 2 shakes + 1 meal I think. We'll see. I have one cheat planned though, for sunday. I usually don't cheat at all when I do the shake only part but this has been decided forever, so, I'm just going to do it carefully and hopefully it will be fine. I'll continue to work out so on the days where I do cardio, I'll probably add eggs or a shake, otherwise I'll just be feeling bad. And, well, that's not good for motivation.
Oh my, this was a gigantic posting. Sorry about that, and if you actually read all the way to here, thank you.
Good luck to all of you out there, you really can do it. It's actually quite easy, we just do it!
Hugs!
