Littleslimmingbee
Gold Member
hello fellow slimmers.
im feeling like i cant continue with slimmingworld at this moment in time.. i feel like im really fighting myself. i dont want to 'leave' sw, or my group in general because iv been there 3 years now and i really enjoy it.. but im starting to dred weigh ins, and im not enjoying it at all. im worried the longer i continue to feel this way i will struggle to get back on it when baby arrives. I am packing the weight on big time, a good 2 stone now and i recon next weigh in will put me over that 'limit' that sw gave me before i start paying again and am no longer classed as a target member. (for those of you who this confuses, as a target member i am allowed to gain up to 2st whilst pregnant before paying again) .. i can stick to plan just fine, but it is hard, and my never ending hunger- no matter how big or filling my meals, means i fight myself over treats and chocolates etc.. and i feel guilty. i dont want to get on the scales anymore, i really. . really dont. Iv gained every single week since about week 10- i finally managed to loose 1lb 2 weeks ago but my god it felt hard to really stick to plan 100%.. but i was SO chuffed.. then i followed plan 100% the 2nd week, and gained 2.5lbs. Now that i am not upset about in itself, cos i was good and so it has to be baby.. and im aware there will be weeks no matter what i eat that baby will gain, and some it will be all me.. i had a good day sw wise thursday and friday.. but then ate two cream cakes, biscuits... and then out for a curry.. onion baijis, poppadoms, creamy curry, naans.. the lot.. saturday and then it got no better sunday. i really enjoyed myself but i feel incredibly guilty and the fact i know im over that 2st mark now.. i dont need scales to tell me that.. im just struggeling.
my head is torn. . i feel like its spiralling out of control, and with 18 more weeks to go AND a 2weeks cyprus holiday to enjoy i literally could pile on EVERYTHING i worked so hard to loose before.. its a very real possibility.. no matter how hard i try its just piling on.. and yes yes.. i know im pregnant but its not showing signs of slowing down and i dont want to be 4st heavier at the end of my pregnancy.. but at the same time the thought of going to class wednesday makes me want to cry, and truthfull iv been forcing myself to go for weeks now.. im not sure whats best for me anymore.
im feeling like i cant continue with slimmingworld at this moment in time.. i feel like im really fighting myself. i dont want to 'leave' sw, or my group in general because iv been there 3 years now and i really enjoy it.. but im starting to dred weigh ins, and im not enjoying it at all. im worried the longer i continue to feel this way i will struggle to get back on it when baby arrives. I am packing the weight on big time, a good 2 stone now and i recon next weigh in will put me over that 'limit' that sw gave me before i start paying again and am no longer classed as a target member. (for those of you who this confuses, as a target member i am allowed to gain up to 2st whilst pregnant before paying again) .. i can stick to plan just fine, but it is hard, and my never ending hunger- no matter how big or filling my meals, means i fight myself over treats and chocolates etc.. and i feel guilty. i dont want to get on the scales anymore, i really. . really dont. Iv gained every single week since about week 10- i finally managed to loose 1lb 2 weeks ago but my god it felt hard to really stick to plan 100%.. but i was SO chuffed.. then i followed plan 100% the 2nd week, and gained 2.5lbs. Now that i am not upset about in itself, cos i was good and so it has to be baby.. and im aware there will be weeks no matter what i eat that baby will gain, and some it will be all me.. i had a good day sw wise thursday and friday.. but then ate two cream cakes, biscuits... and then out for a curry.. onion baijis, poppadoms, creamy curry, naans.. the lot.. saturday and then it got no better sunday. i really enjoyed myself but i feel incredibly guilty and the fact i know im over that 2st mark now.. i dont need scales to tell me that.. im just struggeling.
my head is torn. . i feel like its spiralling out of control, and with 18 more weeks to go AND a 2weeks cyprus holiday to enjoy i literally could pile on EVERYTHING i worked so hard to loose before.. its a very real possibility.. no matter how hard i try its just piling on.. and yes yes.. i know im pregnant but its not showing signs of slowing down and i dont want to be 4st heavier at the end of my pregnancy.. but at the same time the thought of going to class wednesday makes me want to cry, and truthfull iv been forcing myself to go for weeks now.. im not sure whats best for me anymore.