Sean(JSF)
Making it all add up
OK, I know this is daft, but I'm getting 'wobbly' in the Real World.
Anyone who's read my blog on RTM will know that I got into a 'routine' of continued weight loss throughout, and actually had to work on maintaining rather than continuing to lose.
All was good until holiday (having STS for 4 weeks post RTM) then I put on 14lbs over 4 weeks away. Now I know 11st 13lb was really too light for me (I was 15st when I left school, having played a lot of Rugby & other sports, target was 14st).
Since coming home I've settled into a routine and 'lost' a few lbs to get back to 12st 8lb. BUT, and here's the wierd bit, I feel 'heavy' and am getting loads of positive strokes from people who I only see every couple of months. So internally I feel like I've been slipping whilst the World still sees a success. This is a real issue as I feel a fraud!!!!
Should I go back to dieting to get to my lightest weight again? I really have no motivation to do that but can't see an alternative at the moment....
I know I should be happy with where I am. I look better than I did pre holiday (especially around the face which is less gaunt), and TBH I would have bitten your arm off in Jan if you'd ever said I could be 12st (anything) so why do I feel so disappointed with myself?
I guess it's normal, but I've never been here before....
Sorry to vent, no doubt in a day or so I'll feel differently but for now I need to lean on Minimins.
Thanks for listening
Anyone who's read my blog on RTM will know that I got into a 'routine' of continued weight loss throughout, and actually had to work on maintaining rather than continuing to lose.
All was good until holiday (having STS for 4 weeks post RTM) then I put on 14lbs over 4 weeks away. Now I know 11st 13lb was really too light for me (I was 15st when I left school, having played a lot of Rugby & other sports, target was 14st).
Since coming home I've settled into a routine and 'lost' a few lbs to get back to 12st 8lb. BUT, and here's the wierd bit, I feel 'heavy' and am getting loads of positive strokes from people who I only see every couple of months. So internally I feel like I've been slipping whilst the World still sees a success. This is a real issue as I feel a fraud!!!!
Should I go back to dieting to get to my lightest weight again? I really have no motivation to do that but can't see an alternative at the moment....
I know I should be happy with where I am. I look better than I did pre holiday (especially around the face which is less gaunt), and TBH I would have bitten your arm off in Jan if you'd ever said I could be 12st (anything) so why do I feel so disappointed with myself?
I guess it's normal, but I've never been here before....
Sorry to vent, no doubt in a day or so I'll feel differently but for now I need to lean on Minimins.
Thanks for listening