Janey
Intuitive Eater
I don't know what to post or what to say without boring everyone, but I lost my most valuable cat and friend on Friday, Floyd. Seeing him die has torn my heart apart. I adored him so much, he was so much more than just a black cat to me. He was so loving, he followed me everywhere, begged for my attention all the time .... and now my house is quiet and empty, and I feel heartbroken and lonely. Very lonely. I am grieving for Floyd like people grieve for humans. I have never felt so bereft over an animal before. I can't eat and feel ill in myself, I can't stop crying, I keep waking up in the middle of the night feeling an overwhelming sense of depression, grief and guilt, and right now I can't cope. I keep scouring the internet reading websites about losing a pet. It doesn't sound much to say my cat died but when you share your home with a living soul who gives 100% love and affection and you adore them wholeheartedly, when they are gone (last Monday I was unaware he was even ill and he was here in the house with me) the emptiness you feel is awful. I can't believe I'll never see him again, I can't even believe I'll ever be happy again. Part of me died with him on Friday. :cry: